FRIENDSTER BLOG (1)

since friendster has announced already that it is going to go a major reformat thingy, i decided to save some of my blog posts there from total oblivion and put it here in my blogspot site, my forever blog. oh yes you read it right. i have a friendster blog. i made it way back in 2005, that time when friendster was still on the top, you know. :) so, let's start? get ready for many "dramatic" and "jejemon" posts here. hahaha! no i am not really jejemon with those upper and lower case style letters. it's just that i change the spelling of my words and i put a lot of dots. it's like designing your text. yeah yeah. it's very trendy years ago, when we were still high school. i know you can relate to that too. DON'T DENY IT. >:)

ang "GUGMA" nga naman..

(Feb. 04, 2006)

"love is when u sacrifice ur own happiness"

thats true!!! take it from me… mas masarap ang feeling… though masasaktan ka at mahirap talaga… pero in the end… masasabi mo talaga sa sarili mo… "tnx.. buti na lang at naisip kong gawin un.."   ",

skul tym... agen...

(May 21, 2006)

june 5.. ang araw ng unang pasok namin.. haay.. new faces.. new teachers.. new problems.. and most specially.. new memories..

kta tau lht!! june 5 is d day!! =)

bye... ryjae wiean...

(June 10, 2006)

maybe u dnt knw diz peepz.. but i just want to say bye to them.. im gona start a new ‘life’ and try to find another one.. but also.. i want to say tinkyoe to them.. to ‘ry’.. coz he left me here.. to ‘jae’.. coz he taught me how to be ‘numb’.. =)

an eerie CONFUSION...

(July 29, 2006)

hey peepz.. im CONFUSED.. a frienship confusion.. gnito kc yan.. im torn between my two close friend groupz.. oakey man cla.. i love them all.. but itz just dat.. minsan na mimiz-interpret ako.. im tryin to be a good friend to everyone.. but still some can’t see it.. i dnt knw kng may ’selos’ effect ba dito.. but wla  namang dapat pagselosan kht cno sa knla!! halos umiiyak na nga ako everyday.. everynight bfore i go to sleep.. kc di ko kya mwala ni isa sa knla!!.. and i dnt wnt any frenship to break!!.. tapos di ko pa ma share sa mga kaibigan ko ang problem ko ngaun kc nahihiya ako at natatakot.. di ko alam saan magsisimula at anong dpat sabihin.. isa pa.. halos lahat ng cloze frenz ko damay dito.. di ko alam kng cno ang lalapitan ko.. alam kong andyan naman cla palagi for me.. but nahihiya lng tlaga ako.. can u help me??!.. hirap na hirap na tlaga ako ..ano dapat ang  gawin ko.. pra maayos ito.. and saan dapat ako lulugar.. di ko na talaga kya.. apektado na ang studies ko.. i can’t think that  much.. wla ako sa isip ko ngaun.. di normal.. wla sa sarili..  my life is INCOMPLETE.. =’(

*here's a comment from this post. one i treasure most too. :)*

…confused?

That’s weird, coming from you..

Since I’m not there, I can’t give you any decent/sound advice…

But I CAN tell you something that I learned here in PISAY:

“Sometimes it is good to share your problems with somebody you don’t know very well.”

Talk it over with someone, and hope it’ll work out.

It usually does. ^^

Say hi to everyone for meeee!!

~NeoNix (a.k.a. Yoni if you forgot. xD)

P.S. I’m so… ENGLISH! 

just a love story...

(Sept. 04, 2006)

meet aellard.. a famous pianist in their school.. she plays for all their school programs and best part.. she’s d one who composes the songs for their musicale.. a sweet young girl who just lives her life simply.. =) meet stanford.. a well known guy bcoz he’s very intelligent.. in short.. beauty.. body.. brains.. and VALUES!! very humble and so handsome.. d dreamboy of everyone.. when this two ‘bumps’.. what wud posibly hapen???????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. aellard and stanford are clamates since junior high.. aellard started to like stanford when they reached senior high.. aellard is a famous pianist.. stanford is popular too.. many girls liked stanford.. but aellard just ignorned it.. she said that its only a crush and derz nothin to wori about.. but aellard didnt expct.. SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH STANFORD!!!.. it just simply come out.. a feeling that came without a warning.. she began to stare almost everytime to stanford.. every detail about him.. aellard wants to know.. she became so in love with stanford.. but the most painful part.. even aellard does everything.. stanford doesnt seem to notice her.. he is numb.. a certified numb.. aellard ofentimes ask herserlf y she fell for a numb guy.. after a long while of thinking.. she decided to stop her feelings for stanford.. she decided to FORGET stanford for her feelingz for him is already useless.. she loves stanford but stanford has no feelings for her.. oouucchh!!.. so dat was it.. she started to forget that numb guy.. but here comes now.. last year of high school.. when everybody is already excitd for college.. aellard and stanford are still clasmates.. but the very100 painful and sorowful and ouch thing.. aellard’s love for stanford seems to go back!! now that she already forgot stanford and everythin bout him!!.. and now that.. stanford has already his ‘LOVE’……………………………………………………………………….. so now i’ll leave this to all of you.. wat can you say.. wat must aellard do?!!.. forget stanford again??!!.. or just let her love for that numb guy to grow.. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

my whole self...

(Dec. 26, 2011)

ive been si busy lately wid skul.. but now.. its vacation so i must enjoy it.. well im bit of enjoying it.. tankz to rosie dunne and her very "awakening" story.. tankz also to mae for leting me borow it.. oh gazh.. rosie dunne’s life is like ma life.. from the very first trace of ma first love up to ma second lov den up to now.. ma latest crush!!!!!!!!!!! not ma 3rd love u kmw!!!!!!!!!!! oh wel.. so much for dat.. wat makes ma xmaz really really sad.. diz xmaz is d first time i lose a "bunch" of frenz.. =’( really sad and very hurtful.. i dnt knw why it hapened.. how it hapened.. maybe i just became so numb dat i dnt feel and see dem dat tym.. itz very weird.. but i blame myself.. i dnt knw if itz ryt.. but smehow.. i have a big big part why we separate ways.. we had our xmaz party.. but it doesnt feel dat much hapi lyk last year.. it really takes tym to "accept".. but i really mmmmmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzz dem already.. lyk wat dey said.. we can nvr turn bak d tym.. wer frenz stil.. but d closeness isnt der anymore.. a bond has been broken.. and it takes maybe a hundred tymz bfor i can fix it to myself.. im a bit broken.. =( but as wat dey say.. wen one door closes another one openz.. and i found it ryt..

hapi bdai to me!!!

(Jan. 19, 2007)

hapi bdai to me!! also to ma erz yang!! 15 na kmi!! tiguwang na!! and now.. we are on the last chapter of the first phase of our lives.. 14 was good. how bout 15?! well.. lets just see.. for diz post.. just wana tank all the eeps hu rememberd ma bdai.

-joiners.. erz-dash-yabee-jipi-ibz-siop..

-marj-jinks-shi..

-princes hrz ministri.. fren ni gian[emomate]-monique[bum]-bodigard ni janel[vasai]-sooperdooper frens[jinei and jazel]-mahal na reyna[michelle]-royal sekretari[gehgeh]-prince troy[troi].. prince gian[gianino]..

-pedrositohz.. winson-dwayne-chan2-kamz-rupunepel-roxan-mice-jan9-haz-elton-bart-ugli-aldrin-trix-saiah-reg-ernest-ej-ieffer-vi ann-emui-peynz-pai-moises-jed-dilmar-malandi-jisun-patrik..

-teachers.. mam zeni-sir dandi-sir heki-mam sayas..

-mga gitkrushers!! jL-patui-jonathan-jay..

-ldr 789.. yen-lyks-lissy??!!.. =)

-and mani more!! beibi-jei-bhez-ryan-vina-ug sa tnan2 pa!!

-ma famili.. -pa-me-bin-te dimz-ta clara-yaya-nanai..

tanku sa inu lhat!!!!! sa memori.. sa gep.. sa griting.. labon na sa slipover.. =)

sa uulitin!! –>

js prom!!!

(Feb. 10, 2007)

grbe.!! ang saya ng prom.!! its a certified memori.!! sa laht ng nabagsakan ng lagacy awars. kongrats.!!! lalo na ke drin haz jip ibz jenki marj jisun at skn nrn.!! yaeh.!! marj di katuohan.!?? amazing.!! sa imu nami magpatudlo ug chem.!! ibz.!! ikaduha jud diay mag paso2 sa tunga.!?? walkin ensaiklopedia gud.!! jenki. kulot.??!! di na. straight nka krn.!! tanku su much joinerz_07 marjidichel at buong pedrositohz.!! insan tanku sa susi ng responsibilidad.!! tanku sa trust pti na sa pik frame.!! sa spich gudlak.!! mali to aku.!! pamiz. ipadaun nku ang ‘insan’ legacy. ke bien tanku ke nisugot ka aku imu prtner. tanku sa pik taking. ke paklui tanku sa whte rose at sa pag gabay skn habang sumasayaw. tanku jb sa pik taking. tanku geh sa sayaw at pik taking. tanku sa lht ng nag kongrats skn. tanku sa laht ng ngbgai skn ng rose. tanku most gianino. sa sayaw sa pag eskort and for the nyt. tanku sa inu lahat.!!! hangober kau ku.!! PROM IS A CERTIFIED MEMORY.!! sa uulitin.!! LIVE ON SENIORS!!! GOOD LUCK JUNIORS!!!

.im a criminal.

(March 21, 2007)

.yaeh i am.

.i killed 7 peez.

.without my full consent.

.i just killed them.

.with no knowledge at all.

.now i cant turn bak tym.

.theyre alredi gone in my life.

.now im incomplete.

.im trying to figure out y dis is all hapenin.

.but i just cant.

.the most painful part.

.im all alone fighting and facing dis very hurtful poblem.

.i cant sai it to anyone.

.i smyl to show im ok.

.but every nyt after eviwan is asleep.

.i cry at the corner of our livin rum.

.now wat.

.wat wil i do.

.its stil not done.

.im torned again.

.i dnt want to hurt peez inemur.

.SORRY.

.i wil carry this sin forever.

.dat smhow in my life.

.i killed 7 peez.

.7 great peez who i love much much.

.SORRY.

.it bothers me until now.

.help me take away those thoughts that go round and round in my mind.

.SORRY.

*another comment for this post. :)*

dnt wory….. soon it will be forgotten… (^_^) pero may punishment yan… hehehehe…
maybe i cnt help bt i will try to help you to take away those thoughts….. (^_^)
yun kaya gawain ko, ang tulungan kayo basta malungkot… remember my name..

-Butterfly_Armor-

.tanku. suri. but never gudbye.

(March 12, 2007)

.saglit lng to.

.just want to sai tanku and suri to this peez.

marj jinks shi yang jip dash yabee chop ibz lyks yen lissy gian jay jb paklui troi bum jen mich bahao vasai harfi gehgeh mice kamz jan9 pril mui and eviwan dat completes marjidichel joiners liturgikal pasmo and pedrositohz 06 07.

.tanku for all the memoz.

.til we meet again.

.see you later.!! =) –>

.pedrositohz forever rock.!!

(March 20, 2007)

.anak aku ni dragon lady.!! at proud aku jan.!!

.gona mis u all peter’s injels.

.saya pa naman ng firwel ntn.

.di ta itom ha.

.we are taaan.!!

.wai limtanai.

.pamansin ghpn pag purtyr nta.!!

.TANKU MUCH MUCH SA MEMOS INJELS.!!

.hanggang sa muli ntng pagkikita.

.be proud.!!

.at ngng anak ka ni dragon lady.!!

.so long farewell.

.pedrositohz 06-07 rock on.!!

=)

.4thyr nku.!!

(June 10, 2007)

.uh yaeh. super senior na aku beauti. hala gudlak kanaku. =D gudlak sa akng pagiging emcee sa first ever day of class but the last jun13 of my hs lyf. getch.!? =D

*comment again. :)*

Heehee. Good luck gyud! 2nd week na naku……

-NeoNix

EINEL

(Aug 17, 2007)

.seven na nga tawag skn ng iba. tnuod njud ni. =D lab ku gehgeh ku. marami ang na state of shock. at marami pa cguro ang papunta sa stij na iyan. =D i understand. many knws. many also do not. sa mga nakaka alam. salamat sa understanding. sa di pa. maintndhan nu sana. sa mga nakakahalata. tama inu hinala.!! =D bsta. eto na. others may say its kind of too late. pro hindi. RIGHT TIME LNG PO. =D

BDAI KU NA!! =D

(Jan. 17, 2008)

bdai ku na peepz. sweet 16 mku. pro un nga lng. meju so not hapi. bfor dat. tanku nlng rin at 90 aku sa comp kht palpak ang exam. ookee ang el fili namn. may CLIMSTERZ na. =D bsta. masaya gud kng pipiliin mng mgng msaya. =D pro kht anng pilit. naa ghpn ang walang hiyang luha na gusto mutulo. family? meju. studies? naa gmay. friends.? dnt knw. love.? NR. ewan. ambot. I HATE IT!! it sucks. super. manhid na tanga na torpe na talawan. ewan. =D sabta nlng ninu ang nag yawyaw. =D cge. i just hope for a veri veri hapi bdai. =D memo sna =D it will be. i will be hapi. =D

.siyete.

(Feb. 25, 2008)

.we are "back". but not yet literally. u knw.!! =D tanks to cupid. intawun. namugas jud sya ug maau. =D

THE END [bow]

(April 12, 2008)

.tapos nrn ang hs. start of somethin new na nga daw. colej here we come na. pro di pa aku ganun kahanda. der are still doubts. maraming humaharang sa kurso ku. kya minsan napapa isip din aku. pro gusto ku eh. un nlng ang nagiging motivation ku. kay guys. i need support. =D it will be new sa colej as iin all new. ewan ku how to start. at di ku pa alam panu mag adjust. =D pro kakayanin. !! huhu. =D at isa pa pla. 16. wer over. its over. ewan ku kng ha. minsan nalulungkot aku. pro pag naiisip ku ang mga pangyayari. tinatawanan ku nlng. kc nga dba. go on with life. pti pud cguro kmu mkatawa. kataw i lng. lets all laf.!! gusto ku man sumuntok ng tao ngaun. mangulata. unya nlng. save the best for last. =D or. palag pasin nlng ntn. wla naman tong magagawang mbuti. cge na. tama nto. bsta un na. sa lht ng nkaka intindi. salamat. =D alam nu na un. tanku guys. katawa nlng ta. =D ang hirap pag wala kang maka usap. at mapagsabihan. =D

.i wana be in heben. haha.

(Nov. 20, 2008)

.i wana be in heben. haha. i just thought bout this. there are many ways u cu fil like ur in heben. and i think im experiencing it now. haha. biga.!! naaaaooh. its just dat. haha. he really is special to me. he is like the one who brightens up my day literali. every trace of him makes me smile. and it just feels so good to knw he’s der. he exist. we share somethin special.?? haha. ambot lamang. but knw wat. im really just thankful ive got to experience this. this electrifying feeling that makes causes a rush of blood. haha. im enjoying the moment. i hope. i wish. i pray. it will never end. haha. i wana be in heben. =D

.pwd magsulat.??

(Nov. 2, 2008)

.uhm. haha. ang tagal ku ring i nka blog. at di ku alam kng anung nakain ku kya aku nagtatagalog ngaun. haha. isa lng ang gusto kung sabihin. sa lahat ng mga wlang lakas ng loob. panahon na para magkaroon kau ng lakas ng loob. haha. wla sa una ang pagsisisi. lgi itng nasa huli. kya mag isip2. hindi sa lahat ng bagay ay may dalwang pagkakataon. yeah.!! =D

"all love stories are the same"

(Dec. 5, 2008)

.haaaiiiii. nothing has change. as what paolo coelho said. all love stories are the same. well. he’s right. i believe in him. i dnt knw bout ur opinions. its just that. what i see are all the same. its like a cycle. a history. that repeats itself.

.boys. be brave enough. its not that we keep u waiting. its just a matter of time. to PROVE yourself that u are definitely worth it. keep pushing. work hard. in a girl’s heart. there is already that spark. you just have to trigger it. so never lose hope and dnt ever say “ayoko na. wla man ghpn mahitabo”. thats a very invalid excuse. do whatever it takes.

always remember. girls love surprises. even little things. we appreciate it. if a girl gives u something. value it. keep it. dnt just throw it away. it makes our heart melt. value your girl. value the one you love. they only come once. never agen.

MOST OF ALL. be different. prove to us that all love stories are NOT the same. that your love story is unique. very one of a kind.

.are you the one who could break my perceptions.!?

.i hope so. =D

.my [not so feelin well] bdai thanks.

(Feb. 1, 2009)

.oh thank you thank you to all the peepz who greeted me on my bdai. its so touching to think that you all remembered  my day. especially to those unexpected peepz.  i knw its been almost 2wiks alredi since my bdai. but as wat they say. BETTER LATE THAN NEVER. =D so here it is. my thank you’s.

.dash. yabee.

.marj. jenki. shishi.

.jipoi. debi. yang.

.anin. rupu. master. iber.

.bum. iprel. emuii.

.dora. nora. berna. tina.

.patuii. moises. joe2. haz.

.ralf. gehgeh. paklui. troy. jay.

.cd. hoppy. balot. jnc.

.lyka. toto.

.mami belen.

.jaed. hippo. ajos. nesto. jonjon.

.ian. ji ar. benben. e3a. h4n.

.momi. papa. arbin. nanay. yaya. ta clara.

.though my bdai wasnt that much happy. [i admit it.!] i stil thank you guys for letting me feel that i still have reasons to be hapi. =D THANK YOU. until nxt yr.!! i will still see yah then. =D

.but here comes the twist. the very reason why i feel so sad these days. the shifty thingy. i dnt knw wat to choose. there are many factors that clouding  up my mind. my thoughts are so super wandering. i dnt knw. i cant think well. i have to make up my mind so soon. but it seems that i cant. knw wat. ebri night my tears are always in the verge of falling. smtyms i control them not to fall. but there are just those many times that i cant control them. it makes me sick. it makes my heart so weak. i dnt have peace of mind lately. and even up to my dreams. they are bothering me. they are HAUNTING me. and its alarming me. i dnt knw wat to do. i dnt hav total hapines today. they are all just “temporaries”. now i have to decide. the problem is dat im not good at this. i always make mistakes. but i knw i have to. i have to make a very CRITICAL decision. and wateber happens here will surely affect my FUTURE. and i dnt want a bad future. nobody wnts it.

.so help. help me. my KUYA. help me. guide me throughout this discerning stage. im gettin weak. make me strong. i admit i cant take it anymore. but i knw i have to fight this because this is for me also. =’(

.and to all the peepz around me. my FRIENDS. my classmates. my teachers. and especially to my FAMILY. i am not a perfect person. we all knw dat. i commit mistakes. i stumble and fall. i knw i may give you disappoinments already because of this. but wat i just wish from all of you. is the SUPPORT and UNDERSTANDING. i nid much ur support. to help make me feel that im not alone. and wateber i decide. wateber road i choose. i hope you’ll understand why. =’(

.its not easy being in this situation today. i just hope that one day when i’ll wake up. i will feel good already. and ebritins gona be fine. I REALLY HOPE SO.

.my HEARTS day.

(Feb. 14, 2009)

.maraming nagsasabi na kpag single ka wla knang krapatan sa feb14. oo. dhl sbi nga nila for lovers only. pro iba na. sa panahon ngaun. single awareness day na ang feb14. mas marami na ang single kesa sa mga double. haha. pro kht anu pman yan. isa lng ang gustong iparating ng feb 14. na kht single kman o double. may karapatan taung lht mgng masaya. at higit sa lht magmahal. =D

.kya naman. ang saya ng feb14 ku. loveless man. nakuha ku prn tumawa at ngumiti sa araw na ito. super. ang saya. enjoy the moment. nag date aku kht wlang boypren. haha. mas masaya pa. ksama ku pamili ku at mga kaibigan ku. sa tingin ku nga mas masaya mag feb14 na single kesa double. haha. tik lng. bsta un na un. masaya aku ngaun. sa susunod ulit na feb14. =D

.ang sarap magmahal ulit. weee. =D

.hpi hearts day. mua mua. tsup slurp. I LOVE YOU =D

EDWARD ANTHONY MASEN CULLEN

(April 21, 2009)

.unsa man. LOVE pku nimu.? or drama lng ni krn.? wla gud ku ksbot. wla ku kblu kng mutuo bku o dli. kng tnuod bna imng gna ingn o dli. kai murag lahi man imu gnpkita. or manhid lng cguro ku kau. wla pud ku kblu. naglibog lng jud ku. unta mag SURE nka sa kng unsa man jud imng gusto iingn sku. ingna lng. ayaw nku pangutan-a. diretsuha na. i need ANSWERS. not QUESTIONS.

isabella marie swan

getting crazy

(Sept. 3, 2007)

.getting crazy.? yes.!! things are getting crazier.!! i’m goin crazy.  :))

.life has been LIFE lately. after all the posts here. still i can’t answer my very deepest question. how will i ride life’s flow.? the river is getting crazier lately. i’m goin’ crazy. but somehow. i’m still grateful because i still have my own boat firm and strong though i’m not sure how to paddle it. i’ve tried many ways. i’m doing good but i think it’s just not enough. i think i still need to paddle more and exert more effort.? i think so. but…….. i think i’m tired. i’m tired as of now. i’m not saying i give up. NO. giving up is a no no. i don’t want to go back to “those” times again. it’s like i think i want to rest for the mean time. think. reflect. be with myself. but how.? i can’t. i’m loaded with responsibilities that i should do first. somehow. i want to think things over and be with just myself. when.? that’s the question.

"i want to fix my life and give its direction back."

.i think i have not yet done this. or if i have done it already. i think i’m still on the 20% mark. i still have to strive the 80% harder. harder. harder than it used to be. :))

I WANT TO

this is my "I WANT TO" post. what about it? well it's like fill in the blank. it goes like I WANT TO _________. so let's start? i have so many i-want-to's in my mind today. :)


I WANT TO go to these places.

• Pantukan, Davao Oriental, Philippines
• Calinan, Davao City, Philippines
• Bali Bali Resort, Samal, Philippines
• Pearl Farm, Samal, Philippines
• Buda, Philippines
• Aman Pulo, Palawan, Philippines
• Panglao, Bohol, Philippines
• Boracay, Philippines
• Baguio, Philippines
• Tagaytay, Philippines
• Vigan, Ilocos Norte, Philippines
• Camarines Sur, Philippines
• Benguet, Philippines
• Hongkong
• Macau
• Beijing, China
• Shanghai, China
• Tokyo, Japan
• Hokkaido, Japan
• Seoul, South Korea
• Suwon, South Korea
• Jeju Island, South Korea
• Bora Bora
• Singapore
• Bali, Indonesia
• Bangkok, Thailand
• Cambodia
• Maldives
• Sydney, Australia
• New Zealand
• Johannesburg, South Africa
• Monaco
• Sofia, Bulgaria
• Oslo, Norway
• London, England
• Manchester, England
• Wales, England
• Scotland
• Dublin, Ireland
• Copenhagen, Denamrk
• Paris, France
• Madrid, Spain
• Barcelona, Spain
• Ibiza, Spain
• Milan, Italy
• Venice, Italy
• Frankfurt, Germany
• Athens, Greece
• Santorini, Greece
• Poland
• Holland
• Rome
• Toronto, Canada
• Tampa, Florida, USA
• Miami, Florida, USA
• Orlando, Florida, USA
• Boston, Massachusetts, USA
• New York, USA
• Chicago, Illinois, USA
• Los Angeles, California, USA
• Las Vegas, Nevada, USA
• Washington DC, USA
• Texas, USA
• Utah, USA
• Colorado, USA
• Sao Paulo, Brazil
• Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
• Buenos Aires, Argentina
• The Bahamas

----- April 11, 2013 -----

• Amsterdam, The Netherlands
• Morocco
• Cologne, Germany

I WANT TO go to the concert of these artists.

• The Corrs
• Maroon 5
• The Script
• Bruno Mars
• Taylor Swift
• One Republic
• Coldplay
• Westlife
• Green Day
• Dashboard Confessional
• Jason Mraz

I WANT TO HAVE these gadgets.

• Canon DSLR camera
• Playstation 3
• iPad 2
• Sony Vaio Laptop

I WANT TO HAVE these musical instruments.

• Electric guitar
• Drums

well i guess that's all for today. i'll think of more I-WANT-TO's and i'll post it here soon. :)

MY SHORTEST POST EVER

hey. hello. oh yes, i planned to write a new post on my blog earlier but with a different topic. not with this one i am writing now. actually, i don't have a specific thought on my mind today. they are wandering around really. so i guess this will be my shortest post ever? yeah. this will be my shortest post. ever.

today is maundy thursday. have a blessed holy week people.

CORNER TORRES STREET (blogspot version)

this entry was first posted on my tumblr account last march 12, 2010. i decided to post it here again as a "memory" of what had happened last march 11, 2010, exactly 1 year and 1 month ago. :)




huwaaa. huwaaa. huwaaa. super huwaaaa!! :)) :)) :)) :)) :))

i really can't imagine how did last night happen. i mean after everything that had happened yesterday, it was never in my deepest thoughts that that thing would come true. now i can really say, DESTINY is real. I HAVE BEEN A VICTIM OF DESTINY. :))

it was dash's birthday yesterday. she just turned 18. oh how sweet. now we're all 18. it just means we're not high school anymore. hahaha. it's another chapter in our lives that we will explore together. no more lollipops and candies. it's now more of ...... you know what i mean. hahaha.

i would like to thank dash for the very butod tiyan snacks and dinner. super dami food. yeah. cakes here, spaghetti there, chicken barbecue with unli rice everywhere. hahaha. whoooo. you never fail to fill our empty stomachs dash. so love it. hope also you like our gift. i hope that fits you. and promise me you'll wear it. i love you dash. i love you yabee. i love you tripod. ps. i will really try to go to pantukan on april 11. :))

and here it is!! here it is!! the climax of march 11, 2010!! hahahaha.!! our lives crossed last night!! as in literally crossed!! hahaha. whoooo. and yes your right. i meant ralph in that statement. ayeeeeee. naluya jd ko. natunaw ko. naloka ako!!! hahaha. you see it was really unexpected. first, i accompanied yabee at spc. she bought sterile gloves for her boyfriend. when we passed through kuya ed's, i saw a table with a nun and 3 boys with her. i only noticed the nun and no one else. then when we were 5 steps away from them, i wondered why yabee stopped and she was smiling and trying to say something. spill it yabee! haha! then she said "si ralph! yabee si ralph to!" hahahaha!! i was so AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! "unsa akong buhaton? unsa akong buhaton?" those words were really running on my head. then i decided no yabee we should go straight ahead. it would be sort of embarrassing if we would go back just to see and confirm if it was really him. oh well. at that point, i thought, that's it --- that we don't have any chance anymore. :(( yabee and i went straight to pinutos near kasagingan at torres where dash celebrated her birthday dinner. yeah we told her about the ralph encounter. and mind you i did it in front of her mom. hahaha. and oh i remember. when we were in the car, tita [saaar] asked me why we [me and ralph] don't have any communications anymore. what happened to us, and that she wanted us to be "us". ayeeee. i was so bukad atay at that moment. i just answered her "unta jd tita maging kami jd." hahaha! oh see. the signs were all "ralph" yesterday. i even ordered an iced latte for drinks because that drink really reminds me of him. but unfortunately, the waiter told us that it isn't available anymore. huwaaaa!! see! see! that strengthen my theory that "we are not meant to be". but but but but but!! as in capital BUT!! when it was time to go home already, i told tita that i will just dropped by at the corner of torres street. then the hilux stopped. i said bye and thanked all of them. i said bye to ate beth too and then we parted ways. i crossed the street and then BANG!! someone said "HOY DINELLE!!!" when i turned around to see who it was, i saw a boy wearing a pair of slippers, brown cargo shorts and a gray shirt. when i looked up his face, i knew it. RALPH RALPH RALPH!! ralph khristopher colindres castillo!!! my labs!!! hahaha. whooo. and you could just imagine the smile on my face. or better yet don't imagine it anymore. it's unthinkable. hahahaha!! we talked. i asked him what he's doin' there at around 10 in the evening. he told me he was looking for a loading station. he asked me also what i was doin' there. i told him that it was his childhood friend's birthday and that he should greet her. haha. i told him also i was heading for mcdo because my brother asked for spaghetti and sundae. he asked for my number. stupid me why i didn't asked for his number! hahaha. and then we talked. we talked. we talked. time stopped again. i felt like it ws only the two of us there. no people. no cars. no everything. just ralph and dinelle. it took quite a while also that we exchanged words, stories, smiles, laughter. after we had dinner last sept 23, 2009, march 11,2010 was another moment to remember. it's just so sad that we had to separate ways. it was already late and i have to study for my exams still. and he still had to buy load so that he could text his classmate about their cookbook project. BUT IF ONLY HE KNOWS I STILL DON'T WANT TO GO AND THAT I DON'T WANT HIM TO GO TOO AND THAT I WANT HIM TO STOP ME FROM GOING AWAY. hahahaha. oh ralph my ralph. if you only know how hard i forced my feet to turn away from you because i really felt that it doesn't want to walk away still. did you feel the same way too? :))

and that was it. the story of the sweetest march 11 of my life. it was not only my best friend's 18th birthday, but also a day that will mark history again in my life.

ralph khristopher colindres castillo --- you are the only exception. :))

and oh! corner torres street? you are a new tourist spot for me. :))

A BLOG POST TO GOD 2

Dear God,

               

                Eto na naman po ako. Nagsusulat ng isang blog post para sa inyo. This time, medyo Filipino po ito. Tagalog and English. Taglish for short. Hahaha! Sige lang, alam ko naman matalino ka. Alam mo lahat ng languages sa mundo. Kahit siguro jejemon, yung bagong sibol na language ngayon, alam mo rin. Syempre, ikaw ata ang “Maker of All Things. “ :)

                Anong meron ngayon? Uhm, gusto ko lang po humingi ng tawad ulit. Di na naman ako nakapagsimba ngayon. Kaya nga naisip ko gawin ulit ito, itong blog post. Napagtanto ko na kung di man ako makakapagsimba, etong blog post na lang ang gagawin ko. Alternative kumbaga. Ito rin naman po ay isang paraan ng pakikipag-usap sa inyo, kaya okay na rin. Unique pa nga diba? :) Alam ko sa kahit anong paraan, kahit sa mga panaginip pa namin, nakikinig ka rin at iniintindi an gaming mga hinaing. :)

                Gusto ko pong magpasalamat. As in super duper uber MARAMING SALAMAT to the nth power! Para saan? Para sa piano slash keyboard. Yezz!!! Unti unti na po akong natututo. May alam na po akong 5 kanta na i-play. Pero hanggang first chorus nga lang o di kaya ay intro. Haha! Pero okay na yun. At least natututo ako slowly but surely. :) Salamat din po nung last April 5, Tuesday. Nung na stranded kami sa kanto dahil sa baha? Hahaha! Oo, yun iyon. Salamat po dahil kahit mataas na yung baha, kahit inumaga na kami sa kakahintay doon para lamang ito humupa, di niyo pa rin kami iniwan. Binantayan niyo kami at binigyan pa ng tulong. You know, yung army truck, 911 at rubber boats. Salamat din po sa Hao family dahil pinasakay nila kami sa kanilang sasakyan kahit ang dami ng dala namin. :) Salamat sa patuloy na agos ng mga biyaya. Salamat sa kaligayahan. Salamat sa pagmamahal. Salamat sa aking pamilya. Salamat sa aking mga kaibigan. Patuloy niyo po kaming gabayan. Keep us all away from harm and any danger.

                At tungkol po dun sa naiisip ko ngayon, alam niyo na po yun. Uhm, di ko po talaga alam kung anong dapat kong isipin at gawin. So I think, sa ngayon, kayo na lang po muna bahala. Di ko muna masyado iisipin. I’ll just enjoy summer and make the most out of it. :))))))))))

                THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU! MAKE ME ENJOY SUMMER MORE! :)))))))))))))))

Love,

AKO. :)

CHAPTER 15: TICK TOCK TICK TOCK

"We got off track, Jake. Out of balance. You're supposed to be part of my life --- I can feel that and so can you."

these are the words i really want to tell, well, who? uhm. yes. you. kevin jake de guzman magbojos. i never thought i would say your name again here on my blog. i guess, i just did.

guess, i just miss you. i do not even know why. i know i should not be. oh crap.


(Isabella Swan. Breaking Dawn. Chapter 15. Page 298.)

A BLOG POST TO GOD

Dear God,

                Will this sound weird if I write a blog post to you. Well I think not. Like what they say, we can talk to you in many different ways. And this is just one of my ways to, you know, talk to you. You gave us the gift of technology. Why not use it as a means of reaching out to you right? :)

                Uhm, I would like to say sorry for not going to church this week.  Yeah. I can’t even promise that I’ll go to church next week. But I’ll try. It really feels good when I visit your home. It’s really peaceful, tranquil, and you know, I just feel happy whenever I am with you. Maybe this week, Imma try. :)

                But most of all, I really would like to thank you for these past days, for everything that has happened to me, for every trace of blessing I received. I am truly happy for them all.

·         For my all passed grades, my 79 in integral calculus. Very good grades, THANK YOU!

·         For that lunch bonding at kfc with my ECE friends, although we were just few, THANK YOU!

·         For the TRIPOD bonding last March 24, 2011, THANK YOU! Many secrets shared. :)

·         For that March 29, 2011 dinner with kuya at mang inasal robinsons, THANK YOU.

·         For kuya’s surprise house invasion the day after, THANK YOU.

·         For kuya’s pa-epal company last April 1, THANK YOU.

·         For my date with jintot yesterday, yeah jinTOTnid date, THANK YOU!

·         For seeing jipoi yesterday at Victoria, THANK YOU! I really miss her. -__-

·         For that drama drama night I had with debdeb and dash in facebook about our high school moments, THANK YOU!

·         For the long sleeps I have lately, THANK YOU!

·         For the I-can-do-whatever-I-want days, THANK YOU! :)

·         For my F.R.I.E.N.D.S, THANK YOU! :D

·         For my mom, my dad, and my brother, THANK YOU! :D

·         FOR THE HAPPINESS, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!! :DDD

I still have 2 months to enjoy summer. Help me enjoy it. I want to maximize every second of it, doing stuffs which I can’t basically do when classes will start again. I hope I’ll have a fun, exciting, happy and MEMORABLE summer this year.

THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN! AND, I LOVE YOU! :DDD

A PAIR OF DRUMSTICKS

so much for all the teary eyed comments last night (yes because of my last post, my super friends in high school especially debdeb were oh so reaction paper and crying because we remembered and miss everything back then. yeah. i cried too.), let's take a break first! here is another poem which i wrote for a dear friend of mine. her name is jintot. not the real one you know. it's just the name that i call her. she calls me dintot too. so that's basically the etymology of our names to each other. haha. yeah. she is my classmate in architecure. yes i was an arki then before i shifted to ece. well oh well, technically, we were not classmates because i am in the morning class and she's in the afternoon. oh yeah. but we we still know each other 'cause you know, there are only few arki students. we got even closer because of the exhibit we had. our batch made a 1 week exhibit in our school displaying all our masterpieces. so that was it. like we were almost always together because we were the ushers in the exhibit room. if we have nothing to do, we just jam and sing and play the guitar all day. we got even MORE closer when i told her i was going to shift and that i'll transfer school. she was kinda sad. i was sad too. i gave her a remembrance and in return i asked a remembrance from her. when she said that she'll give me drumsticks because she noticed that i was into drums, i was like O___O!!! i was jumping all over the place and i hugged her after! tight hug! can't believe it. it were original drumsticks. straight from japan! authentic! so there. that explains why my title is a pair of drumsticks. we are friends til now. still close though we are apart and we got to spend few times only. but it's okay. it's part of life and growing up. after all, when we graduate, when she'll become an architect and i become an electronics engineer, we'll have all the time (and the money!) in the world! hahahaha!

A Pair of Drumsticks

Life is full of wonderful surprises

Different fates are drawn in our faces

You’ll never know what your destiny would be

If you won’t accept the unchanged reality

So DESTINY got a herculean task

Two people should learn to remove their masks

Slowly touching each other’s heart

Painting everything into a single art

Then came that night I didn’t expect

A cute little voice whispered on my neck

A humming tune which made me grin

For a splendid friendship is about to begin

We started to know each other well

We began to reveal some secrets to tell

Smiles and laughter we shared as one

I never thought being with you would be this much fun

“Wakwak Moments” as what we call

It’s like our houses are divided by just one wall

Staying so late just to seize the hour

How we both wish that time would run slower

I thank you so much for coming along

And sorry for the things I’ve done wrong

We may not have the stint to bond with each other more

But these memories we have will never fade for sure

I know soon we’ll have to separate ways

Just keep in mind that I am here always

A pair of drumsticks is all I need

To remember the name—jinTOTnid =D

DON'T SAY GOODBYE. JUST, SEE YOU LATER.

today is march 29. and march 29 means, happy 18 months to dash and kaloy. happy candle cakes day to ate dianne, jintot's cousin. and and and! HAPPY GRADUATION TO MELMEL! happy grads to batch 2011! congrats! i know you are all happy. but you what should you feel? SAD. hahaha! it's not that i am encouraging you to feel it. but really, when you get to college, you will miss to the highest level of the mountains above to the positive infinity the days of high school. your school, your uniform, your teachers, your classmates, the lessons, the fun, the brain killer exams, the nerve cracking defenses, the super boring lessons, the break-all-the-rules day, the laughter, the cries, the sleepless nights, the presentations, the dramas, the projects, the creativity, the merienda session in front of the school, the chika moments under the talisay tree, the flag ceremony, the recess at the big and mini canteen, the programs in the gym --- EVERYTHING! when you go to college, there will no longer be things like these. or if there is, it will be different already. yeah. i know we all have to move on with our lives because life is a constant change. but somehow, there will still be times in your life that you will look back to the memories of your high school life and just can't help but smile or cry. yeah. cry. so as for me, i am missing my high school life now. as a tribute or a remembrance or a token or whatever you call it. hahaha! or it's just that, i want to remember my high school life now. as a summary of it, i will post here my salutatory address. yes. you read it right. my salutatory address. i won't explain further what's that. haha! but if you have questions, just ask me. i'll be willing to answer it. so here it is. have fun reading! i hope you will really have fun and not get bored. hahaha! sorry if it's very long. :)

SALUTATORY ADDRESS

“All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know at what time they come.”

            Our school president, Sr. Marietta Banayo, m.a., m.a. sisters, our high school principal, Mrs. Eufrosina Mines, administrators, teachers, staff, parents, guests, friends, fellow graduates, ladies and gentlemen, good afternoon.

            I can still remember the first time I stepped foot in this campus. I was still young then, unconscious of what was happening around me.  It never came into my mind that I would become “this” someday.

            It is just like yesterday, I was still in kindergarten. I remember playing with my clay molding it into different shapes. But now, I woke up with an unusual thought. This day is our high school graduation already. I have to prepare my things and be ready for this very special occasion. It makes me shiver somehow. But I am sure, I am not alone. All of us feel this too, especially my fellow graduates.

High school life is far different from those days back in elementary. In our secondary years, we experienced most of our “firsts” as a teenager. We were so curious of life. There were obstacles that challenged our ways to succeed. We failed sometimes. But, nothing can ever replace the achievement of gaining lessons while experimenting them. We did not escape from responsibilities too! In fact, there were piles of them. From time to time, we thought deeply on how to handle the duty that was given to us. Sometimes, we fall on our knees and cry trying to surrender. We even encountered conflicts from various people. But you know what, we did not let ourselves be carried away, by the hardships that we had, and in the end, the camaraderie still reigned. Oh my, I will really miss those times.

            These experiences simply mean that Assumption has developed our personality. We may not notice it, but little by little we have made a difference in ourselves and in our community. We learned that the key to organization is managing chaos. Look at us now! No wonder, we have really tested ourselves on how strong we are and how far we could go.

            And why have I said that? It is because that ACD has been my family for eleven years. This institution has changed my whole perception in life. They were the ones who opened my eyes and let me believe that even the youth can take a stand in this society. It’s not only in me that I have seen these changes. Even in every student I met everyday, I can say that they slowly learn the Assumptionist’s way. The school’s VMT is also a big help to us. It does not only speak for the few, but rather, it lets us know that many need our assistance. It does not make us ignorant of the reality. It even pushes us to act with dignity and continue to seek for a social transformation that would benefit us all. Let us also put into consideration the characteristics of an Assumptionist. These gave us the wisdom to understand more the path to righteousness. Yes, we will all leave this school, but those traits will live forever in us. Together with the Christian virtues that we have learned from our Alma Mater, let us not be afraid to face any trials that may come our way and we continue to uphold the vision of an Assumptionist wherever we may be.

Yes. It will be diverse in college—new people, new environment, new memories and most especially, new challenges. But we will not be terrified. Assumption has given us the rigid training we need. I can say that this institution does not only supply our academic needs but, it also gives importance to our process of becoming better persons. Many may not perceive it. But, if you will just try to look at the other side of why we have those difficulties, surely you can say that it was for us to ready ourselves for the future. And that is, to continue our journey towards our quest in obtaining a worthy education and to stand on our own feet someday.

We are now left with choices. It is in our hands the power to decide for ourselves. Our families will still be there though. People around us will still guide us. But remember, you can trust them but don’t expect a guarantee. We are the drivers of our own lives. We pilot our own airplane. It now depends to us if we want to dash higher, fly steady or go down. So better work harder and learn to be independent. Maybe some of us have firm decisions already. Some may also have doubts still in their minds. But whatever situation you are in right now, just keep in mind what really makes you happy. Happiness is more of a choice than an option. But also, never forget your limitations and do things with respect to the characteristics of a true Assumptionist.          

Now, we have really come to the end. Sad to say it, but we cannot do something anymore. Even if we still want to stay, we have to go forward, let go, and move on. The clock will continue to tick even if we stop working. So before my time ends here, allow me first to thank all the people who led me to become “this” today.

            To our Almighty Father, thank you very much to You. You never failed me. Thank You for Your constant guidance and for being with me through ups and downs. Even though I sometimes disobey Your will, You are still there for me, never leaving my side. This honor is for Your glory, oh Lord.

            To my family—Papa, Mommy, Arvin, Nanay and Yaya, thank you so much for all the sacrifices you have done for me. Thanks for the love, care and the support in whatever I do. Thank you for understanding my busy schedule that sometimes I do not have time for you anymore. I hope that these will all remain still when I enter a new chapter in my life. 

To all my teachers since the day I started my life here in ACD—Teacher Daisy, Teacher Ivy, Teacher Pauline, Teacher Jo, Teacher Marites, Sir Nelle, Ma’am Grace, Ma’am Glenda, Ma’am Moralde, Ma’am Celeste, Sir Rocky, Sir Banuelos, Ma’am Thelma, Ma’am Llanto, Ma’am Castillo, Ma’am Padin, Ma’am Bardz, Ma’am Cadiz, Ma’am Robles, Sir Dandie, Sir Wel, Ma’am Ambray, Ma’am Rose, Sir Libot, Sr. Lina, Sir Payad, Sir Colango, Ma’am Sayas, Ma’am Zeny, Ma’am Cora, Sir Rex, Sir Migs, Sir Jubelag, Ma’am Diza, Sir Heki, Sir Albarico, Sir Breydi, Sir Montejo, Ma’am Bulanag, Ma’am Figi, Ma’am Villanueva, Ma’am Ging, Sr. Rose, Ma’am Lao, Sir Dais, Sir Eugene, Ma’am Bautista, Ma’am Impot, Sir Encio, Ma’am Carascal, Ma’am Raagas, Ma’am Roni and to the rest of my mentors—THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BRINGING OUT THE BEST IN ME. Remember the clay that I played when I was still in kinder? We are like it. I am the clay and you are “me”. You all molded me into shapes which led me to be the person I am right now. Thank you for being my second father and mother. I have learned a hundredfold from all of you. To you I owe the knowledge I have today. Thank you so much!!!

To all my friends, accept my heartfelt thanks for accompanying me in all my endeavors. Thank you for giving me a sense of belongingness and for making my high school life so memorable.

To MarJiDiChel, thank you for accepting the change I had and for accepting my life now. Although we had a misunderstanding, I know you did it for my own good. Thank you for the care and for still supporting me until this moment. You really are true friends.

To the joinerz, thanks for understanding that some things are just not meant to be. We had a very bumpy road, I know. But thank you still for giving me a home when I badly needed it. I will never ever replace with something the memories that we shared as one. Those will forever be in my heart.

            To the LDR 789, thank you guys for the group studies. I will surely miss it. Our friendship will still remain even if we will have our own ways soon. Continue to dream bigger and reach your goals. Take good care of yourselves.     

           

            To the T.R.I.P.O.D, thank you. Never in my life had I imagined that we will end up together. But I thank the Lord so much for doing that. Thanks for making me believe in forever again. Don’t ever forget that we are the three legs of the tripod. If one leg is out, WE ALL FALL DOWN. So don’t ever give up. I breathe because both of you exist.

            And to all Gorettianz, OLPHianz, PEDROSITOHZ and MARKerz, thank you for filling up my empty memory box. Now I have a lot of them. In fact, I had to make another one. You simply rocked my world. Thank you.

And to all the people who inspired me, thank you so much. Definitely, you are the reason why I exert more effort in achieving my dreams.

Finally, my time has ended. I will bid farewell with an excerpt from the speech of our valedictorian in grade six.

“My fellow graduates, before you leave our dear Alma Mater tonight, take one long, last look around and commit it to a memory that will last a lifetime.”

            Don’t say goodbye. Just, see you later. =D

Sgd. *insert my real name here* 

PS
this made me cry. i was sobbing while reading this on the stage in front of too many people. :)))
AND! another trivia! i almost slipped ON THE STAGE IN FRONT OF THE TOO MANY PEOPLE that time i finished this speech and was on my way down to take my seat. THAT WAS EPIC! my tears were all converted to laughter! and you could just imagine the reaction of the crowd. hahaha! i wonder if my classmates had a video of it. i wanna see again!!! :)))))))

JEANS

this is one of my favorite poem ever. i do not know but i just find this one perfect, the rhythm and the rhymes. plus this is my first and so far the only poem that is branched out from the "to my santiago" verses. (in case you don't know bout it, check out my post with the same title.) okay i know the title is nowhere to be found in the poem. and it doesn't seem to have any connection at all with the words. haha! but i made this poem when i and my ex broke up. for questions bout his name, ask me. haha! and yeah, i got the title from one of our pictures. i just find that picture sweet even though it's only half body. so there. that's why. i think that was our last sweet picture together.

Jeans

A silent tear I whisper

A soundless scream I cry

Deep inside I remember

That we are meant to say goodbye

Endless nights I think ‘bout you

Sunny days I dream your face

Didn’t picture we’ll end up blue

And soon stop this senseless craze

I wonder if you felt the same

I don’t know if I was a fool

Shouting over your little name

Knowing nothing ‘bout your rules

I believed what you had said

I understood the things you’ve done

But none I thought would wet my bed

Those lies I found made the warmth gone

Maybe it was a game so vain

Wasted chance as I have seen

Two strangers locked in lovers’ chain

This is what we could have been

-May 6, 2008

here's the picture...

sorry. i kinda edited it. :)

NOT MINE

FINALLY! i've found you! actually, this poem should be the one i posted earlier. but i do not know why i had a hard time finding this! RAWR! hahaha. well anyway, here it is. somebody asked me to post some more, so KUYA, here's your request. :)

NOT MINE

My heart does a special beat for you

I don't know if this is wrong or this is true

I don't know if I really have this kind of feeling

Cause I'm still confused, that's why I'm dreaming

But why does my heart act like this?
Why do I get hurt when I see your granted wish?

Is this really love I'm feeling right now?

Maybe yes..... Maybe no.....

Whatever it is, there's only one I can see

Destiny don't want me to love you truly

EVEN IF WE CHANGE THE HANDS OF TIME

EVERYBODY CAN SAY, YOU'RE NOT MINE

-April 25, 2005

the last two lines of this poem are my all time favorite. i use it anytime anywhere when needed. i do not know to whom is this poem dedicated. no records here in my notebook. hmmm. i am guessing, this is for my first love who migrated in tampa, florida. yeah. i guess so. oh my oh my. memories again. :)

AND YOU KUYA! you got what you asked. haha! don't worry, i'll post more soon. :)

PAG-IBIG KONG DI MASABI

this is a poem i made like six years ago. it's stated here in my notebook that i made this last feb. 05, 2005. woah? second year? 14 years old? whaaaat?! hahaha! yeah i know. so just please bare with this. words are kinda overrated but hey, i'm still 14 then. innocent mind. >:)

ahem ahem. here it goes. dot dot dot. and oh, it's tagalog by the way. if you need translation, just comment slash ask me. dot dot dot again. :)


PAG-IBIG KONG DI MASABI


Ikaw ang parang naging sandigan ko
Noong umalis siya at iniwan ako
Ewan ko ba kung bakit mahal kita
Kahit alam kong may gusto ka ng iba


Ikaw ngayon ay nasa aking puso
Pero hindi ko masabi-sabi ang totoo
Hindi ko masabi na mahal kita
O kaya'y ipadama ang aking nadadama


Hindi ko na alam kung anong dapat gawin
Hindi ko alam kung kailan ko sasabihin
Dahil takot akong masaktan sa huli
At baka ulit, ako'y magsisi


Sa tuwing makikita kitang may kasamang iba
Nasasaktan ako ngunit may kasama ding saya
Pero anong magagawa ko, hindi pa naman tayo
"Itago mo na lang" , ang sabi ng aking puso


Sana sa panahong ito, araw ng mga puso
Malalaman mo ding mahal kitang totoo
Sana makaabot itong aking mensahe
Mahal na mahal kita ngunit di ko lang masabi


now i remember that i made this poem for a filipino project and that it was valentines season so that explains basically why i had the line "sa araw ng mga puso". another thing, i made this poem for a boy that i have a crush since kinder until now. yeah, my highschool classmates know him and maybe some of my college friends know him too.

why i posted this here? uhm i am thinking of starting to post my poems here on my blog. at least they're wisdom will not just be caged on the four corners of my notebook. they will have exposure then. :)

TO MY SANTIAGO...

this is something that started way back in my third year high school days. i never thought i would bring its legacy until now. crazy times! hahahahaha! figure it out if you're one of them. >:)

TO MY SANTIAGO I

Don't let me fall for you 'cause I know you won't catch me.

TO MY SANTIAGO II

Two strangers locked in lovers' chain, this is what we could have been.

TO MY SANTIAGO III

Forever is just a history

Spoken yesterday, forgotten easily.

TO MY SANTIAGO IV

You said that we will be together.

You said that you would wait.

What happened to that promise of forever?

What happened to the vow we made to fate?

why SANTIAGO? my teacher told us in second year high school that SANTIAGO is the bisayan translation of the name JAMES. just like JOHN and JUAN, and PETER and PEDRO.

why JAMES? well, i realized that i am prone to the name james. that most of my crushes are james. so yeah. you could conclude that all these santiago statements are about and for boys.

BOYS? who? i don't know! hahaha! kidding. okay. boys who brought a very big impact in my life. boys who, i could say, never became "mine". maybe for a time but not too long. :)

will there be SANTIAGO V? VI? VII? i am not just sure when, but i assure you, YES. there will still be upcoming santiago's. i just hope that the next santiago will be a happier version than the first four santiago's.

yeah. :))))

THESE ARE THE MOMENTS I THANK GOD THAT I'M ALIVE

and i think this post has the longest title. hahaha! i just wanna share here what happened this night. yabee, (sheena. my bestfriend) called me. and it's so cute. why!? she just said, "yabee! kabalo nko mag piano atong kanta sa the classic. paminawa ha?" shocks!!! when she played it, IT MADE ME OH SO CRY! aaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!! yabee you're so sweet! you're so cute! it's still you! nothing has changed! and i love it! i love you for that! whoooooooo!!! thank you yabee for making me happy tonight. thank you for sharing with me your new piano piece. sa sunod, ako na turuan mo ha. shocks, naiingit talaga ako. hahaha.

PS
dash and i will try our very best to go on your pinning day. LEZZ HOPE FOR THE BEST. :)

and oh! belated HAPPY CANDLE CAKES DAY TO DASH! it's her 19th birthday yesterday. :)

I LOVE YOU YABEE! I LOVE YOU DASH! I LOVE YOU TRIPOD!!! :DDD

here's a video of the song yabee played to me a while ago. it's entitled more than love. this is in my playlist. i'll never get tired of listening to this. it makes me fall in love over and over again. :)