ROYAL WEDDING FEVER

THIS!

i just witnessed the wedding of the century. the royal wedding as they say. that day when a prince marries a commoner. SO LIKE A FAIRY TALE! so cinderella!

i wanna have a royal wedding of my own. but to do that, i should have my own prince first. where could he be now? :)

this is one of my dreams. not literally a grand and luxurious wedding, but that "fairy tale" kind of feeling wedding. where i'll marry my prince charming, THE ONE who may not be royal, but the one who will be LOYAL to me. :)

congratulations to the duke and duchess of cambridge, william and catherine! i wish you happy marriage and may you have many lovely kids. :)

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i want to get back my SMILE

(Aug. 12, 2009)

okeii. another post. uhm. ive been into blog posting lately. it seems that i post more these days than before. oh well. just got so many thoughts in my mind. they are exploding. hahaha.

.how do i start.!? i dont know exactly. its still the same. the thoughts of being scared. scared of the future.! hahaha. thats how pathetic i am right now. stupidity.!? oh call it whatever you want. i think its really that. hahaha.

.okeii. here’s the thing. woah. college just seems to not love me. huhuhu. does IT hate me.!? hahaha. i dont know. i want to love college. im working hard to do all my responsibilities. but still. i feel there’s lacking. im very EMPTY. i need to be FULL. but i dont know what or who could fill up the emptiness.

.i want to get back my SMILE.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for the longest time. i havent “smiled” my super duper happiest smile. i think the last time i smiled happily was.. was.. uhm.. march 14 2008.!? hahaha. you know. that “smile” where there are no worries at the backest part of your mind and you just feel that you have all the time in the world. oh yeah. i really think so. almost 18 months ago. woah. hahaha. [and if you're wondering what happened there. ask me. i'll answer you. :))]

.see. can you imagine it.!? for more than a year or less. im just. just. just so inconsistent. i laugh. i smile. but i cant really say im happy. after the laughter. after the smiles. im back again to my stupidity. being a JERK. hahaha.

.i know you are also confused with the things i wrote here. yeah. its very complicated. and i want to know the solution very soon. so that i can have that march 14 2008 smile again.

.i hope soooooooo. i want to be HAPPY again. :))

in a world where everybody hates a happy ending story

its a wonder love can make the world go round

but dont let it bring you down and turn your face into a frown

you’ll get along with a little prayer and a song :))

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MY "NEW" BATTLE

(June 10, 2009)

okay. here i go now. i think 4 days to go its school already. new life it is indeed. everybody knows that i “shifted”. from archi to ece.  i transferred school also. from um to addu. it was a very big decision–very hard to make. i have been through a lot before i ended up with what i have today. the process was very heart aching. i can almost see my brain exploding from thinking about what should i really do.

i’m enrolled already. i am now a certified ece student at addu. but. here comes the “but”. I’M MISSING MY ARKI BUDDIES. and i mean all of them. from my classmates to our higher year friends.  i have been with them for 1 year. i spent my arki life with them. together we have made so much memories. they even helped me during those very down times in my lilfe. let’s just say. i became attached to them UNNOTICINGLY. oh yeah. that’s really it. that sometimes i think to myself. “did i make the right choice?” “what if i’ll go back to archi and be with them again?” oh yeah. i know. stupid questions you may  say. but i can’t blame myself.  i am weak. so weak. i wnt to make me strong. but how? i reall don’t know how to.

BRITTLE–that’s the very best word that fits me today. you know. i have made all the decisions already. been through the battle. but look at me now! with just one word? i’m already “MOVED”?! oh no. even i myself. i don’t know what to do with me already. i shouldn’t lose focus. but yet. i don’t know! sometimes i hate myself because of it. it’s just that. i really don’t know how to make me strong. i wanna be. i really want to be strong! to be focused!. but. arrgghh.

.maybe i just can’t let go. oh yes i admit i have the difficulty in letting go. in accepting things. oh super it’s really hard for me. i don’t know. maybe i just treasure memories too much that i can’t let go of the people whom i shared those memories with. i think. i really think so. even before. that was my problem already. but now. i wanna change it. i wanna learn the science of letting go and in accepting things the way it is happening.  i really hope so i could learn this as soon as possible.

i know. i’m here already. i mean. i should continue the battle which i have started. i should not easily break down because like what grey’s anatomy said “the moment you surrender you forget exactly the reason why you’re fighting” ouch. it really strucked me. that’s why i should not give up anymore. i have to win this. and eventually bring home the bacon which i so long to have.

it won’t be easy adjusting again. but i just hope that people around me will help me. may i have the sense of belongingness, the family, the buddies, the motivation, the eagerness to go to school, the determination, the focus, the contentment, and most specially, the happiness that i need to win this battle. i know it’s gonna be tough. but if i have all these, at least i have the strength to continue and surpass the battle. and i will always remember the very reason why i’m fighting.

i miss you all guys. my arki buddies. but i know we should not worry because this is just a part of life and that many battles even bigger as this wait us when we graduate and face life’s real reality. don’t worry. we can still bond with each other. remember. it’s not the quantity of time, rather it is the quality on how you spend it.

to my ever dearest KUYA. i’m sorry if i my grip in archi wasn’t so strong that i failed to tighten it. i’m sorry for asking you so much questions and doubts over and over again. honestly, i’m afraid. i’m afraid that i’ll lose this battle. that what if i made the wrong decision. you know it KUYA. but i’m trying to be strong already. i am building up myself again erasing all these doubts and replace it with encouragements. that i know YOU have plans for me. that these all happened because you want me to learn. that i know someday i’ll have a “place” on this earth. that i will become succesful in this field i chose. they will be proud of me. and most specially. I WILL BE PROUD OF MYSELF.  i hope YOU understand my situation right now. i hope YOU won’t stop loving me ang guiding  me to the right path. don’t ever leave me KUYA. with YOU by my side i know i can do this.  just help me through it. and i hope i’ll be fine. i will be strong. i have to be! I LOVE YOU KUYA. 

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LATELY

(May 19, 2009)

.lately. ive bin out of updates. my diary is very stagnant already. i havent written there since last 2 months i think. oh yeh. but im fortunate i have my planner. it is sort of a shortened diary. the everyday happenings of my life are there.  =D

.lately. i really wanna go somewhere else. yah knw. spend my vacation to the fullest. ive never been out of town for vacation purposes. it has always been here–in the four corners of our house. i wanna go somewhere. somewhere where i could experience life’s diversity. where i could be free. where i could learn on my own. where i could discover new ideas. where i could meet new faces and together we’ll all share our lives to each other. where i could make my DREAMS come true. and where i could be totally HAPPY. IF ONLY MY PARENTS WOULD ALLOW ME TO AND GIVE THEIR TRUST AND SUPPORT TO ME. [kblu nmu unsa. unta madaun njd ni. unta sugtan ku.]

.lately. my heart is wandering. very much wandering. i feel a cut inside so i think it’s hurt. but i dnt want to talk bout it further. it will just create confusions and controversies. let’s put a stop to all of these. START A NEW LIFE. =D

.lately. ive been missing the people who became a big impact in my life. you all knw who you are. if you get this. leave a msg. pls. =D ive been missing you all so badly. yeh. soooo baaaaad. =D

.lately. I WANT TO FIX MY LIFE AND GIVE ITS DIRECTION BACK. for whatever it is. i hope you will all be still there for me. the love care trust support and understanding.

.lately. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. =D

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.my 2008 spits.

(Dec. 31, 2008)

.2008 has just ended. a new year has just made its grand entrance–2009. so let me have this chance to count all the blessings i received last year and say thank you to all who have added color to my colorless but now colorful life. =D

.my whole high school gang. the gorettianz OLPHianz pedrositohz and MARKerz. i just graduate this year. so all the memories we had are still fresh in my mind. i still cant get over with you guys. thank you. naingn na ni nku sa spits nku tng grad. haha.

.MARKerz. yaeh. we had a LOT. laughters. tears. fights. screams. shouts. FU’s. putas. yawas. libaks. name it. haha. the teachers that we had hurt. we made them CRY. yaeh. but through it all. we have conquered the fight between ouserleves. we reconciled. we succeeded. what a way to end our high school life. i miss you guys. nimnimnimnimnimnim. haha.

.CLiMsterz. for the one of a kind BROTHERHOOD. tankuu. we are not just a group. we are brothers. the CLiMsterzHOOD. wag kalimutan.

.the high school faculty. and i mean ALL. haha. i wont mention you each anymore. i did it already last grad. haha. again tankuu. for molding me into the shape i am right now. mkamingaw mu.

.MarJiDiChel. still the blood runs in us. haha. thank you. such true friends. wlai limtanai jud. haha.

.joinerz both 04 and 07. though some things are really just not meant to be. still we shared many memories. and i treasure them til now. mag reunion na lgi ta ba. haha.

.LDR 789. asa nmn tawun mu.? paramdam pud. haha. .

TRIPOD. ups downs rights lefts. haha. like what i said. whatever happens. we will forever be the three legs who will make a BANG in the history. sa 2009 npud.!! haha. ilabu pigs. =D

.suners. oh apil mu dri uii. haha. tankuu for the constant presence. the time. especially when i need immediate help. 911.!! haha. sa susunod na akui mag emu ult. haha. emutera kau ta tnan.

.balot cd hoppy jnc. ehem. haha. tanku first to dash for letting us all meet together. then thank you all. for the new friendship that we founded last year. i enjoyed it so much. hoping for more moments together this year. =D

.CO2. my college buddies. what a way to start the new phase in my life. tankuu much for the friendship. the bond. for being there always. for helping me adjust to a very new environment. sa lht ng poblema. shift2. lablyp. MV’s. grado. mkalagot na platos. wlai tulog na adlaw. blik2 nlng na. ayaw tawun mu pagsawa. dghan pa kau na krng 2009. kita2 ra ghpn. kuto.!! ARKI US.!!

.garapols. haha. slamat lmang sa wlang sawang pag alalay smin mga co2. haha. naa pai 4 yrs. mag uban ghpn ta ninu.

.arki us. e3a. h4g. ug kng asa pta na rum ibalhin sunod. tankuu. sa mga wlang humpay na tawanan kht nkaabang na ang plates. kht wla ng mga tulog. wlang ligo. lht2 na. haha. ktawa ghpn. ngpa ila lng na pasmo na. haha. humana mu sa vistech.?? haha.

.THE ARCHITECTS. to all the new faces i met last year. mga higher years.!! kau lht. you know who you are. thank you for being such an inspiration to us–the newbiis. haha. tankuu for the help. for accepting us to the family. for not letting us feel that we are different. most especially for DESIGNING the best house for us to live in the new place we just entered.

.the arki faculty. its just my first year. i admit im having the difficulty adapting to my new environment. tanku for the patience and for seeing the potential in me. slowly i will develop and improve. just help me through it. one day you will be proud of me. [hope so. =D]

.to my special someone. [kng knsa man maigu. =D] tankuu for letting me feel this rush of blood. we shared moments together. all of them made me happy. painted a very big smile on my face. i’ll never forget all of those. yeah. more time i think. and i hope when that time comes. it would be “IT”. hope for more moments together. ily [??] =D

.KUYA. thank you. many trials. and i know many are yet to come. but no matter what. as long as i have you. i will fight it. [hnai2 lng pud gmai ha. =D] I LOVE YOU.

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since friendster has announced already that it is going to go a major reformat thingy, i decided to save some of my blog posts there from total oblivion and put it here in my blogspot site, my forever blog. oh yes you read it right. i have a friendster blog. i made it way back in 2005, that time when friendster was still on the top, you know. :) so, let's start? get ready for many "dramatic" and "jejemon" posts here. hahaha! no i am not really jejemon with those upper and lower case style letters. it's just that i change the spelling of my words and i put a lot of dots. it's like designing your text. yeah yeah. it's very trendy years ago, when we were still high school. i know you can relate to that too. DON'T DENY IT. >:)

ang "GUGMA" nga naman..

(Feb. 04, 2006)

"love is when u sacrifice ur own happiness"

thats true!!! take it from me… mas masarap ang feeling… though masasaktan ka at mahirap talaga… pero in the end… masasabi mo talaga sa sarili mo… "tnx.. buti na lang at naisip kong gawin un.."   ",

skul tym... agen...

(May 21, 2006)

june 5.. ang araw ng unang pasok namin.. haay.. new faces.. new teachers.. new problems.. and most specially.. new memories..

kta tau lht!! june 5 is d day!! =)

bye... ryjae wiean...

(June 10, 2006)

maybe u dnt knw diz peepz.. but i just want to say bye to them.. im gona start a new ‘life’ and try to find another one.. but also.. i want to say tinkyoe to them.. to ‘ry’.. coz he left me here.. to ‘jae’.. coz he taught me how to be ‘numb’.. =)

an eerie CONFUSION...

(July 29, 2006)

hey peepz.. im CONFUSED.. a frienship confusion.. gnito kc yan.. im torn between my two close friend groupz.. oakey man cla.. i love them all.. but itz just dat.. minsan na mimiz-interpret ako.. im tryin to be a good friend to everyone.. but still some can’t see it.. i dnt knw kng may ’selos’ effect ba dito.. but wla  namang dapat pagselosan kht cno sa knla!! halos umiiyak na nga ako everyday.. everynight bfore i go to sleep.. kc di ko kya mwala ni isa sa knla!!.. and i dnt wnt any frenship to break!!.. tapos di ko pa ma share sa mga kaibigan ko ang problem ko ngaun kc nahihiya ako at natatakot.. di ko alam saan magsisimula at anong dpat sabihin.. isa pa.. halos lahat ng cloze frenz ko damay dito.. di ko alam kng cno ang lalapitan ko.. alam kong andyan naman cla palagi for me.. but nahihiya lng tlaga ako.. can u help me??!.. hirap na hirap na tlaga ako ..ano dapat ang  gawin ko.. pra maayos ito.. and saan dapat ako lulugar.. di ko na talaga kya.. apektado na ang studies ko.. i can’t think that  much.. wla ako sa isip ko ngaun.. di normal.. wla sa sarili..  my life is INCOMPLETE.. =’(

*here's a comment from this post. one i treasure most too. :)*

…confused?

That’s weird, coming from you..

Since I’m not there, I can’t give you any decent/sound advice…

But I CAN tell you something that I learned here in PISAY:

“Sometimes it is good to share your problems with somebody you don’t know very well.”

Talk it over with someone, and hope it’ll work out.

It usually does. ^^

Say hi to everyone for meeee!!

~NeoNix (a.k.a. Yoni if you forgot. xD)

P.S. I’m so… ENGLISH! 

just a love story...

(Sept. 04, 2006)

meet aellard.. a famous pianist in their school.. she plays for all their school programs and best part.. she’s d one who composes the songs for their musicale.. a sweet young girl who just lives her life simply.. =) meet stanford.. a well known guy bcoz he’s very intelligent.. in short.. beauty.. body.. brains.. and VALUES!! very humble and so handsome.. d dreamboy of everyone.. when this two ‘bumps’.. what wud posibly hapen???????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. aellard and stanford are clamates since junior high.. aellard started to like stanford when they reached senior high.. aellard is a famous pianist.. stanford is popular too.. many girls liked stanford.. but aellard just ignorned it.. she said that its only a crush and derz nothin to wori about.. but aellard didnt expct.. SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH STANFORD!!!.. it just simply come out.. a feeling that came without a warning.. she began to stare almost everytime to stanford.. every detail about him.. aellard wants to know.. she became so in love with stanford.. but the most painful part.. even aellard does everything.. stanford doesnt seem to notice her.. he is numb.. a certified numb.. aellard ofentimes ask herserlf y she fell for a numb guy.. after a long while of thinking.. she decided to stop her feelings for stanford.. she decided to FORGET stanford for her feelingz for him is already useless.. she loves stanford but stanford has no feelings for her.. oouucchh!!.. so dat was it.. she started to forget that numb guy.. but here comes now.. last year of high school.. when everybody is already excitd for college.. aellard and stanford are still clasmates.. but the very100 painful and sorowful and ouch thing.. aellard’s love for stanford seems to go back!! now that she already forgot stanford and everythin bout him!!.. and now that.. stanford has already his ‘LOVE’……………………………………………………………………….. so now i’ll leave this to all of you.. wat can you say.. wat must aellard do?!!.. forget stanford again??!!.. or just let her love for that numb guy to grow.. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

my whole self...

(Dec. 26, 2011)

ive been si busy lately wid skul.. but now.. its vacation so i must enjoy it.. well im bit of enjoying it.. tankz to rosie dunne and her very "awakening" story.. tankz also to mae for leting me borow it.. oh gazh.. rosie dunne’s life is like ma life.. from the very first trace of ma first love up to ma second lov den up to now.. ma latest crush!!!!!!!!!!! not ma 3rd love u kmw!!!!!!!!!!! oh wel.. so much for dat.. wat makes ma xmaz really really sad.. diz xmaz is d first time i lose a "bunch" of frenz.. =’( really sad and very hurtful.. i dnt knw why it hapened.. how it hapened.. maybe i just became so numb dat i dnt feel and see dem dat tym.. itz very weird.. but i blame myself.. i dnt knw if itz ryt.. but smehow.. i have a big big part why we separate ways.. we had our xmaz party.. but it doesnt feel dat much hapi lyk last year.. it really takes tym to "accept".. but i really mmmmmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzz dem already.. lyk wat dey said.. we can nvr turn bak d tym.. wer frenz stil.. but d closeness isnt der anymore.. a bond has been broken.. and it takes maybe a hundred tymz bfor i can fix it to myself.. im a bit broken.. =( but as wat dey say.. wen one door closes another one openz.. and i found it ryt..

hapi bdai to me!!!

(Jan. 19, 2007)

hapi bdai to me!! also to ma erz yang!! 15 na kmi!! tiguwang na!! and now.. we are on the last chapter of the first phase of our lives.. 14 was good. how bout 15?! well.. lets just see.. for diz post.. just wana tank all the eeps hu rememberd ma bdai.

-joiners.. erz-dash-yabee-jipi-ibz-siop..

-marj-jinks-shi..

-princes hrz ministri.. fren ni gian[emomate]-monique[bum]-bodigard ni janel[vasai]-sooperdooper frens[jinei and jazel]-mahal na reyna[michelle]-royal sekretari[gehgeh]-prince troy[troi].. prince gian[gianino]..

-pedrositohz.. winson-dwayne-chan2-kamz-rupunepel-roxan-mice-jan9-haz-elton-bart-ugli-aldrin-trix-saiah-reg-ernest-ej-ieffer-vi ann-emui-peynz-pai-moises-jed-dilmar-malandi-jisun-patrik..

-teachers.. mam zeni-sir dandi-sir heki-mam sayas..

-mga gitkrushers!! jL-patui-jonathan-jay..

-ldr 789.. yen-lyks-lissy??!!.. =)

-and mani more!! beibi-jei-bhez-ryan-vina-ug sa tnan2 pa!!

-ma famili.. -pa-me-bin-te dimz-ta clara-yaya-nanai..

tanku sa inu lhat!!!!! sa memori.. sa gep.. sa griting.. labon na sa slipover.. =)

sa uulitin!! –>

js prom!!!

(Feb. 10, 2007)

grbe.!! ang saya ng prom.!! its a certified memori.!! sa laht ng nabagsakan ng lagacy awars. kongrats.!!! lalo na ke drin haz jip ibz jenki marj jisun at skn nrn.!! yaeh.!! marj di katuohan.!?? amazing.!! sa imu nami magpatudlo ug chem.!! ibz.!! ikaduha jud diay mag paso2 sa tunga.!?? walkin ensaiklopedia gud.!! jenki. kulot.??!! di na. straight nka krn.!! tanku su much joinerz_07 marjidichel at buong pedrositohz.!! insan tanku sa susi ng responsibilidad.!! tanku sa trust pti na sa pik frame.!! sa spich gudlak.!! mali to aku.!! pamiz. ipadaun nku ang ‘insan’ legacy. ke bien tanku ke nisugot ka aku imu prtner. tanku sa pik taking. ke paklui tanku sa whte rose at sa pag gabay skn habang sumasayaw. tanku jb sa pik taking. tanku geh sa sayaw at pik taking. tanku sa lht ng nag kongrats skn. tanku sa laht ng ngbgai skn ng rose. tanku most gianino. sa sayaw sa pag eskort and for the nyt. tanku sa inu lahat.!!! hangober kau ku.!! PROM IS A CERTIFIED MEMORY.!! sa uulitin.!! LIVE ON SENIORS!!! GOOD LUCK JUNIORS!!!

.im a criminal.

(March 21, 2007)

.yaeh i am.

.i killed 7 peez.

.without my full consent.

.i just killed them.

.with no knowledge at all.

.now i cant turn bak tym.

.theyre alredi gone in my life.

.now im incomplete.

.im trying to figure out y dis is all hapenin.

.but i just cant.

.the most painful part.

.im all alone fighting and facing dis very hurtful poblem.

.i cant sai it to anyone.

.i smyl to show im ok.

.but every nyt after eviwan is asleep.

.i cry at the corner of our livin rum.

.now wat.

.wat wil i do.

.its stil not done.

.im torned again.

.i dnt want to hurt peez inemur.

.SORRY.

.i wil carry this sin forever.

.dat smhow in my life.

.i killed 7 peez.

.7 great peez who i love much much.

.SORRY.

.it bothers me until now.

.help me take away those thoughts that go round and round in my mind.

.SORRY.

*another comment for this post. :)*

dnt wory….. soon it will be forgotten… (^_^) pero may punishment yan… hehehehe…
maybe i cnt help bt i will try to help you to take away those thoughts….. (^_^)
yun kaya gawain ko, ang tulungan kayo basta malungkot… remember my name..

-Butterfly_Armor-

.tanku. suri. but never gudbye.

(March 12, 2007)

.saglit lng to.

.just want to sai tanku and suri to this peez.

marj jinks shi yang jip dash yabee chop ibz lyks yen lissy gian jay jb paklui troi bum jen mich bahao vasai harfi gehgeh mice kamz jan9 pril mui and eviwan dat completes marjidichel joiners liturgikal pasmo and pedrositohz 06 07.

.tanku for all the memoz.

.til we meet again.

.see you later.!! =) –>

.pedrositohz forever rock.!!

(March 20, 2007)

.anak aku ni dragon lady.!! at proud aku jan.!!

.gona mis u all peter’s injels.

.saya pa naman ng firwel ntn.

.di ta itom ha.

.we are taaan.!!

.wai limtanai.

.pamansin ghpn pag purtyr nta.!!

.TANKU MUCH MUCH SA MEMOS INJELS.!!

.hanggang sa muli ntng pagkikita.

.be proud.!!

.at ngng anak ka ni dragon lady.!!

.so long farewell.

.pedrositohz 06-07 rock on.!!

=)

.4thyr nku.!!

(June 10, 2007)

.uh yaeh. super senior na aku beauti. hala gudlak kanaku. =D gudlak sa akng pagiging emcee sa first ever day of class but the last jun13 of my hs lyf. getch.!? =D

*comment again. :)*

Heehee. Good luck gyud! 2nd week na naku……

-NeoNix

EINEL

(Aug 17, 2007)

.seven na nga tawag skn ng iba. tnuod njud ni. =D lab ku gehgeh ku. marami ang na state of shock. at marami pa cguro ang papunta sa stij na iyan. =D i understand. many knws. many also do not. sa mga nakaka alam. salamat sa understanding. sa di pa. maintndhan nu sana. sa mga nakakahalata. tama inu hinala.!! =D bsta. eto na. others may say its kind of too late. pro hindi. RIGHT TIME LNG PO. =D

BDAI KU NA!! =D

(Jan. 17, 2008)

bdai ku na peepz. sweet 16 mku. pro un nga lng. meju so not hapi. bfor dat. tanku nlng rin at 90 aku sa comp kht palpak ang exam. ookee ang el fili namn. may CLIMSTERZ na. =D bsta. masaya gud kng pipiliin mng mgng msaya. =D pro kht anng pilit. naa ghpn ang walang hiyang luha na gusto mutulo. family? meju. studies? naa gmay. friends.? dnt knw. love.? NR. ewan. ambot. I HATE IT!! it sucks. super. manhid na tanga na torpe na talawan. ewan. =D sabta nlng ninu ang nag yawyaw. =D cge. i just hope for a veri veri hapi bdai. =D memo sna =D it will be. i will be hapi. =D

.siyete.

(Feb. 25, 2008)

.we are "back". but not yet literally. u knw.!! =D tanks to cupid. intawun. namugas jud sya ug maau. =D

THE END [bow]

(April 12, 2008)

.tapos nrn ang hs. start of somethin new na nga daw. colej here we come na. pro di pa aku ganun kahanda. der are still doubts. maraming humaharang sa kurso ku. kya minsan napapa isip din aku. pro gusto ku eh. un nlng ang nagiging motivation ku. kay guys. i need support. =D it will be new sa colej as iin all new. ewan ku how to start. at di ku pa alam panu mag adjust. =D pro kakayanin. !! huhu. =D at isa pa pla. 16. wer over. its over. ewan ku kng ha. minsan nalulungkot aku. pro pag naiisip ku ang mga pangyayari. tinatawanan ku nlng. kc nga dba. go on with life. pti pud cguro kmu mkatawa. kataw i lng. lets all laf.!! gusto ku man sumuntok ng tao ngaun. mangulata. unya nlng. save the best for last. =D or. palag pasin nlng ntn. wla naman tong magagawang mbuti. cge na. tama nto. bsta un na. sa lht ng nkaka intindi. salamat. =D alam nu na un. tanku guys. katawa nlng ta. =D ang hirap pag wala kang maka usap. at mapagsabihan. =D

.i wana be in heben. haha.

(Nov. 20, 2008)

.i wana be in heben. haha. i just thought bout this. there are many ways u cu fil like ur in heben. and i think im experiencing it now. haha. biga.!! naaaaooh. its just dat. haha. he really is special to me. he is like the one who brightens up my day literali. every trace of him makes me smile. and it just feels so good to knw he’s der. he exist. we share somethin special.?? haha. ambot lamang. but knw wat. im really just thankful ive got to experience this. this electrifying feeling that makes causes a rush of blood. haha. im enjoying the moment. i hope. i wish. i pray. it will never end. haha. i wana be in heben. =D

.pwd magsulat.??

(Nov. 2, 2008)

.uhm. haha. ang tagal ku ring i nka blog. at di ku alam kng anung nakain ku kya aku nagtatagalog ngaun. haha. isa lng ang gusto kung sabihin. sa lahat ng mga wlang lakas ng loob. panahon na para magkaroon kau ng lakas ng loob. haha. wla sa una ang pagsisisi. lgi itng nasa huli. kya mag isip2. hindi sa lahat ng bagay ay may dalwang pagkakataon. yeah.!! =D

"all love stories are the same"

(Dec. 5, 2008)

.haaaiiiii. nothing has change. as what paolo coelho said. all love stories are the same. well. he’s right. i believe in him. i dnt knw bout ur opinions. its just that. what i see are all the same. its like a cycle. a history. that repeats itself.

.boys. be brave enough. its not that we keep u waiting. its just a matter of time. to PROVE yourself that u are definitely worth it. keep pushing. work hard. in a girl’s heart. there is already that spark. you just have to trigger it. so never lose hope and dnt ever say “ayoko na. wla man ghpn mahitabo”. thats a very invalid excuse. do whatever it takes.

always remember. girls love surprises. even little things. we appreciate it. if a girl gives u something. value it. keep it. dnt just throw it away. it makes our heart melt. value your girl. value the one you love. they only come once. never agen.

MOST OF ALL. be different. prove to us that all love stories are NOT the same. that your love story is unique. very one of a kind.

.are you the one who could break my perceptions.!?

.i hope so. =D

.my [not so feelin well] bdai thanks.

(Feb. 1, 2009)

.oh thank you thank you to all the peepz who greeted me on my bdai. its so touching to think that you all remembered  my day. especially to those unexpected peepz.  i knw its been almost 2wiks alredi since my bdai. but as wat they say. BETTER LATE THAN NEVER. =D so here it is. my thank you’s.

.dash. yabee.

.marj. jenki. shishi.

.jipoi. debi. yang.

.anin. rupu. master. iber.

.bum. iprel. emuii.

.dora. nora. berna. tina.

.patuii. moises. joe2. haz.

.ralf. gehgeh. paklui. troy. jay.

.cd. hoppy. balot. jnc.

.lyka. toto.

.mami belen.

.jaed. hippo. ajos. nesto. jonjon.

.ian. ji ar. benben. e3a. h4n.

.momi. papa. arbin. nanay. yaya. ta clara.

.though my bdai wasnt that much happy. [i admit it.!] i stil thank you guys for letting me feel that i still have reasons to be hapi. =D THANK YOU. until nxt yr.!! i will still see yah then. =D

.but here comes the twist. the very reason why i feel so sad these days. the shifty thingy. i dnt knw wat to choose. there are many factors that clouding  up my mind. my thoughts are so super wandering. i dnt knw. i cant think well. i have to make up my mind so soon. but it seems that i cant. knw wat. ebri night my tears are always in the verge of falling. smtyms i control them not to fall. but there are just those many times that i cant control them. it makes me sick. it makes my heart so weak. i dnt have peace of mind lately. and even up to my dreams. they are bothering me. they are HAUNTING me. and its alarming me. i dnt knw wat to do. i dnt hav total hapines today. they are all just “temporaries”. now i have to decide. the problem is dat im not good at this. i always make mistakes. but i knw i have to. i have to make a very CRITICAL decision. and wateber happens here will surely affect my FUTURE. and i dnt want a bad future. nobody wnts it.

.so help. help me. my KUYA. help me. guide me throughout this discerning stage. im gettin weak. make me strong. i admit i cant take it anymore. but i knw i have to fight this because this is for me also. =’(

.and to all the peepz around me. my FRIENDS. my classmates. my teachers. and especially to my FAMILY. i am not a perfect person. we all knw dat. i commit mistakes. i stumble and fall. i knw i may give you disappoinments already because of this. but wat i just wish from all of you. is the SUPPORT and UNDERSTANDING. i nid much ur support. to help make me feel that im not alone. and wateber i decide. wateber road i choose. i hope you’ll understand why. =’(

.its not easy being in this situation today. i just hope that one day when i’ll wake up. i will feel good already. and ebritins gona be fine. I REALLY HOPE SO.

.my HEARTS day.

(Feb. 14, 2009)

.maraming nagsasabi na kpag single ka wla knang krapatan sa feb14. oo. dhl sbi nga nila for lovers only. pro iba na. sa panahon ngaun. single awareness day na ang feb14. mas marami na ang single kesa sa mga double. haha. pro kht anu pman yan. isa lng ang gustong iparating ng feb 14. na kht single kman o double. may karapatan taung lht mgng masaya. at higit sa lht magmahal. =D

.kya naman. ang saya ng feb14 ku. loveless man. nakuha ku prn tumawa at ngumiti sa araw na ito. super. ang saya. enjoy the moment. nag date aku kht wlang boypren. haha. mas masaya pa. ksama ku pamili ku at mga kaibigan ku. sa tingin ku nga mas masaya mag feb14 na single kesa double. haha. tik lng. bsta un na un. masaya aku ngaun. sa susunod ulit na feb14. =D

.ang sarap magmahal ulit. weee. =D

.hpi hearts day. mua mua. tsup slurp. I LOVE YOU =D

EDWARD ANTHONY MASEN CULLEN

(April 21, 2009)

.unsa man. LOVE pku nimu.? or drama lng ni krn.? wla gud ku ksbot. wla ku kblu kng mutuo bku o dli. kng tnuod bna imng gna ingn o dli. kai murag lahi man imu gnpkita. or manhid lng cguro ku kau. wla pud ku kblu. naglibog lng jud ku. unta mag SURE nka sa kng unsa man jud imng gusto iingn sku. ingna lng. ayaw nku pangutan-a. diretsuha na. i need ANSWERS. not QUESTIONS.

isabella marie swan

getting crazy

(Sept. 3, 2007)

.getting crazy.? yes.!! things are getting crazier.!! i’m goin crazy.  :))

.life has been LIFE lately. after all the posts here. still i can’t answer my very deepest question. how will i ride life’s flow.? the river is getting crazier lately. i’m goin’ crazy. but somehow. i’m still grateful because i still have my own boat firm and strong though i’m not sure how to paddle it. i’ve tried many ways. i’m doing good but i think it’s just not enough. i think i still need to paddle more and exert more effort.? i think so. but…….. i think i’m tired. i’m tired as of now. i’m not saying i give up. NO. giving up is a no no. i don’t want to go back to “those” times again. it’s like i think i want to rest for the mean time. think. reflect. be with myself. but how.? i can’t. i’m loaded with responsibilities that i should do first. somehow. i want to think things over and be with just myself. when.? that’s the question.

"i want to fix my life and give its direction back."

.i think i have not yet done this. or if i have done it already. i think i’m still on the 20% mark. i still have to strive the 80% harder. harder. harder than it used to be. :))