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IS HE WORTH THE BLOG? that's my question right now. if i can't answer it, maybe i'll just let that memory (what happened today) fly away with the wind to a very very far far away land.

LETTERS TO JULIET (what if letter)

What’ and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening as words come. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: ‘What if?’…
I don’t know how your story ended. But I know that if what you felt then was love – true love – then it’s never too late. If it was true then it why wouldn’t it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart…
I don’t know what a love like that feels like… a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for… but I’d like to believe if I ever felt it. I’d have the courage to seize it. I hope you had the courage to seize it, Claire. And if you didn’t, I hope one day that you will.”

KD

maybe, this will be the first time since a year and a half ago that i'll write something about love. yeah yeah yeah. i know it may sound corny, but bahala na. i just want to say something about him in this post. i want to express here what are my real thoughts about him.

kevin jake de guzman magbojos --- the man with the super pasikat braces. hahaha. he first texted me on june 19, 2010. i was even kinda busy that time comforting my co2 friends because they are sort of in a rocky love life road. june 19 was just a normal day for me. well a level up special because i went to sm with dash. it was my first time to go in their condo. then yabee went also. it was like a tripod day again for us since march 11, 2010. so i was super happy. then lola called me that co2 is already waiting for us at penong's matina. dora was going to treat us. it was also timing that dash had to go because her mom and sister is waiting at the parlor and yabee has to go to a party too. so i went to penong's and ate dinner with co2. we went to mts after. there, berna shed tears because of her broken hearted feelings as well as dora released her anger and sadness. then my cellphone rang. it was reeza. she asked if she could give my number to a certain kevin. well i said yes. what was on my mind that time was friendship. nothing else. though i know it may lead to something else but i wasn't expecting anymore. i have been through that in my past and i got sort of a trauma. :))

and so we text. we text. and text. until now we text. haha. yeah day by day, we level up. we open ourselves to each other. we share deep secrets. we tell confessions. we go out together. we talk personally. and other more. all of them we do it slowly. there was even a point where i was still shy to see him personally. yeah maybe it was just a natural reaction. who wouldn't go in that stage?! haha. until now, there is still a part of me that becomes shy whenever i am with him. well, i guess i'll just get used to whatever we have in the next days to come. :))

in the span of 34 days, he told me already that he likes me --- that, if i'm not mistaken, he loves me. he was very open to this even at the start. and me as the recipient of his love, i am expected to have a response, whether it's good or bad. so, what was my response anyway? hahaha. okay call me weird already. i told him, i am not yet ready to engage in any commitment as for the moment. i want to prioritize my studies first and other school responsibilities. though deep inside me, i don't want him to go away. that he is one of the reasons why i wake up early even though i sleep late. that he makes me happy. that i want to know him more, i mean MORE. that he inspires me. that he makes me kilig. that he makes me feel that i really deserved to be loved. that he is slowly taking away the trauma i have. i really like him. and as the days pass, i like him even more. love? i can't say now. it's too early to tell i think. i want that when the day comes i'll tell him that i love him, i am so sure of it, both in mind and heart. :))

5 years. i ended up proposing to him maybe the weirdest thing he has ever heard. haha. i told him to wait for me. wait for me for 5yrs. i know it's too long maybe. but for me it was just right. at least, we will know each other more. we will have the luxury of 5 years to know our strengths and weaknesses and how to handle to each of these. most of all, i wanted this for the purpose of building a strong foundation. i learned during my architecture days that any structure should have a strong foundation so that when any typhoon or earthquake comes, it will not crush down easily. i want to enjoy first our friendship, build a strong foundation out of it, so that when the time comes, we will be lovers and friends at the same time. isn't that cool? and when the time comes that we will ran out of love for each other, at least the friendship is still there. it will be remained. and that's what i'm taking care most. i may lose him as a lover but i don't want to lose him as a friend. :))

so it's like engineering. for five years or more. he told me i am worth the wait. he will really wait for me even if it takes five years or more. as for me, i hope he'll never change. i really hope he can handle it, that he can really wait for five years. rest assured, i am exclusively his. i mean, i won't entertain any suitors anymore. he is my exclusive date. i am reserving myself to him. because i really want that after five years, he will be there asking me if i could be his girlfriend finally. without any doubt, i would surely say yes. hahaha! that is, after five years. as for now, we will first face our books, concentrate on our studies, prioritize each our responsibilities as a student and as a son and daughter to each our parents. after all, what we are doing now is both for us, we are studying so that we will have a bright future ahead. besides, after we graduate and get a stable job, we will have all the time in the world bonding together. :))

bird, thank you for making me happy always. for inspiring me. for loving me. supporting me. caring for me. and most of all understanding me. i hope that you will never really change and that you can really wait for five years. you are the type of a guy who is worth introducing to my parents. soon i will do that. better be ready! :))


AT A CERTAIN SPORTS SHOP.....
(we were looking for the perfect rubber shoes for him. he was planning to buy one.)


ME: kani oh! kay gwapo. gwapo ang color. gwapo pd ang design.
HIM: murag kevin durant mani. ay kevin durant jd diay. oh naay KD.
ME: oh di kni nlng. dba idol man nimo si kevin durant?
HIM: oh kni nlng jd akng paliton kay KD..... Kevin Dinelle.

:))

HAPPY TRIPOD DAY!

happy 1,365th day dash and yabee! i super love you both! and i super miss you! i so hope we can get together again and have talky talky. kahit mcdo lang basta kasama ko kayo, masaya na buhay ko. :))

NO OTHER

10 random sweet things you can do for a girl:

1. Tie her shoes

2. Wash her car

3. Buy her a rose

4. Make her a card

5. Record her a video of your talent

6. Play/sing a song for her

7. Give her a balloon with a ring attached at the end

8. Make her a heart mural

9. Take pictures of various hearts

10. Build her a heart puzzle

FOR MY 1,200th POST!!!

i know we are still starting, so i won’t envy those girls whose special someones have done these to them already. i know you are still planning something that could really make my heart lose its normal beating. and i will wait for that. :))

FRIENDS

it's like the famous tv show i know. haha. but really, it's what i want to talk about in this post. i just had some realizations yesterday. they needed an outlet so i thought of posting those realizations here. :))

yes, i am a second year ece student now. after 3 years in college, i can now finally say that i am already in second year. we all know what's the story behind this rumble of numbers. i won't tell it here anymore. too redundant. haha. okay back to the topic, i'm in second year. and in this year, i am finally with my fellow ece's. last year, i was an npa. no permanent address. haha! no section. no everything. just me and some other acquaintances. it was like a lonely year for me, though not that much lonely because i found some company too, but still i have those moments when i really feel "friends sick". i long for them so much --- tripod, climsterz, co2, jintotnid, arki buddies, and most of all, my high school friends. i understand that we all have our own things to do and that they are busy that's why i don't disturb them anymore and just wait if they invite me or ask me out. if i'm not mistaken, we only had those fun until sawa moments during sembreak and christmas vacation. yeah. we had laag moments also during school days but it was not as laag to sawa during sembreak and christmas vacation. last summer vacation, i had a bunch of laags with my high school friends, tripod, co2, arki buddies, and jintotnid. it was like a reunion. every moment was just all smiles and laugh and stories from what has happened to our lives already. there were also those reminiscing moments where we remember the crazy things we did back then. so HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

when june arrived, i felt kinda sad. it means no more laag to sawa moments again. it will be more or less 5 months of school stuffs. we will all be busy again especially them that they are now in 3rd yr (me still 2nd yr). i thought to myself before, what will happen to me? i mean, it will be a new environment again because i will now be with my fellow ece's. they already spent a year together so for sure they all have some stories to tell with each other. but me? not even a single thing. a fresh new start. adjust again. i was sort of worried if i'm gonna be lonely again this year. whether you believe it or not, i prayed to GOD for 1 whole week before classes started. i prayed that i may find the friends/buddies/company whom i'll be comfortable with and who will also be comfortable with me and who will be with me for the rest of my college life. together we will conquer the obstacles that our course has prepared for us. haha. see?! isn't it fun to have such friends who will be with you through thick and thin? yeah i know. :))

when school officially started, yes it was adjusting time. not like last year though, it was sort of just a little adjusting now. but still, i first felt shy because it's new people again. i was not so open yet because somehow they are strangers to me and i am a stranger to them too. haha. but one thing i thank most?! they were very welcoming. they were friendly enough to ask for my name, ask some stories from me, laugh with me, and most of all, welcome me in their group. they even elected slash appointed me to be their class president. so funny isn't it? haha. they share stories with me. they ask for my opinion. they ask for help. they do things with me. laag moments together. see. it really feels warm. they accepted me for who and what i am. and i thank them all so much for trusting me, for letting me in the ece circle --- the "friends-ship" circle. :))

whatever it is that is happening in us now, a little misunderstanding between three parties i guess, i hope we can all resolve this and have reconciliation in the end. after all, it will be all of us who will be together for the next 4 years. i know each one if us doesn't want any division in our group, in our section, in our "friends-ship" circle.

TRIPOD

CLIMSTERZ

HIGH SCHOOL CHUMS

CO2

JINTOTNID

ARKI BUDDIES

V1

ECE FRIENDS

THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU ALL! :))

ECLIPSE with THE BIRD AND THE WORM

i had the greatest eclipse of my life!

i don't know why, but i wasn't that much really paying attention to the movie. all i know is, it's okay. the movie was really a reflection of what's in the book. but i wanted something more like background music especially from the ost. hahaha! but well, i still find the movie interesting though. with all those kisses and kisses and kisses, hahaha! who wouldn't love it?! i will watch it again. :))

and,

THANK YOU KEVIN THE BIRD! <3 :))

here is something for you. hope you'll like this. :))

The Bird And The Worm

-Owl City 

If you're the bird whenever we pretend it's summer

Then I'm the worm, I know the part, it's such a bummer

But fair is fair, if my segments get separated

I'll scream and you'll be there

Close your eyes, close my eyes

Slide the cotton off of your shoulder

And feel the shine, feel the shine

I'm hooked so toss me over and cast a line, oh I'll try

Oh, throw a party and greet my undersea friends

It depends, as they arrive, if they arrive

You and I left our troubles far behind, troubles far behind

But I still have just one more question on my mind

For all my pals who live in the oceans and the seas

With friends like these well, who needs enemies

If I'm your boy, let's take a short cut we remember

And we'll enjoy, picking apples in late September

Like we've done for years

Then we'll take a long walk through the corn field

And I'll kiss you between the ears

If you're my girl, swirl me around your room with feeling

And as we twirl, the glow in the dark stars on your ceiling

Will shine for us, as love sweeps over the room

'Cause we tend to make each other blush, you make me blush

You and I left our troubles far behind, troubles far behind

But I still have just one more question on my mind

For all my pals who live in the oceans and the seas

With fronds like these well, who needs anemones?

You're the bird and I'm the worm and it's plain to see

That we were meant to be

We were meant to be

We were meant to be

If you're the bird

If you're the bird

Then I'm the worm

We were meant to be