MY 2012 SPEECH

If a picture paints a thousand words, then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show, the you I've come to know
If a face could launch a thousand ships then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you, you're all that's left me too

High School Super Friends, Classmates, Batchmates, CONGRATULATIONS to each one of you who graduated this year (especially to those who graduated with flying colors! (Wait. What color does fly? Ay. Joke. Haha!)). Congrats part 2 to everyone who passed their boards and became RN's, CPA's, RPh's, etc. AND to those who are still waiting for the results, and those who are yet to take the boards, keep calm and own those extended letters on your names. AND AND to those who will graduate this March 2013, just a little bit more so just go go go. AND AND AND to those whose graduation is still a long way to go, don't worry, you still have me, forever companion. >:)))

Arki buddiessssssss! This is it pancit! Thesis mode eh? I hope you will all have an excellent mark on your final deliberations. And I really really really hope many of you will graduate this March. I know thesis is sooooooo haaaaaaaard but don't lose the fight. Make yourselves haaaaaaardeeeeeeeer. >:)))

PS. If ever there are thanksgiving parties, you know I'm just a text away. >:)))

And when my love for you is running dry
You come and pour yourself on me

The Mighty 13 ECE Family Solid Forever. Hahaha! I wonder what would be the next name that we'll call ourselves. Not so much talk here. Just want to say, prepare the 500Php and up exchange gift for our Christmas party next year. Prepare also the glam outfits for our class picture. And, prepare the chos chos chos. Hahaha! Kiddin'. Just, I love you all. Let's continue to love, care, understand and support each other. I have witnessed countless "family" deeds that we've done this year. Let's continue doing it next year and next year and next year and you know when. :)))

PS. Let's patronize Reeza's dictionary from now on or else, she'll brenda us. >:)))

New found friends --- SEA Basketball Girls --- thanks for welcoming me, us. Thank you for letting us be a part of the TEAM. We may not have reached the final two spots but hey, there's still the third place up for grabs. It will still be history right? Hehe. But yeah win or lose, I'm happy already. With the friendship we have and the moments we've shared, it's more than a championship game to me. The fact that I got to play even just a few minutes, it's more than a championship trophy to me. Thank you for making this little girl's dream come true. Hihi. :)))

If a man could be two places at one time I'd be with you
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way
If the world should stop revolvin' spinnin' slowly down to die
I'd spend the end with you and when the world was through

TRIPOD. *whispering* Psssshhhhh. Hey dash, let's not disturb yabee cause she's gonna take the boards this January. She needs concentration. Hahaha! Hey yabee! Good luck on your boards! Perfect it! Top it! Haha! Naaaaw. I know you can do it. Just remember, me and dash are waiting for the celebration echosan party already. Chos chos chos! Haha! And you dash, I am waiting for your graduation party too. As for my party, you still have to wait for it. Hihi. I LOVE YOU BOTH! I miss youssss! We're gonna go bonding soon don't worry. (During your parties maybe. Hehe.) BIIIIG HUUUUUG! *especially to you, dash* >:)))

PS. We're almost all 21. Please, whoever wants to wed first, don't hesitate to announce it. >:)))

Family. I believe that keeping things simple makes the world a better place. I believe that simplicity can be understood easily by the majority (Ms. Universe answer lang ang peg?! Haha!). So, I'll just keep this simple. THANK YOU. I LOVE YOU. (caps lock for emphasis) And like I always pray, I don't care if it's simple, as long as we're happy. :)))

Revel bar, I hope the letter covered everything. If it didn't, you can always ask me. :)))

Chocolate, you don't know who you are. If you can guess, text me. Then maybe I'll tell you the things I should say here. Haha!

GOD. THANK YOU. SUPER. I'm not saying that fourth year is a stress free year but yeah, thank You because I was able to have more rests this year than last year, I think. Haha. Though the schedule is not that convenient still, I prefer it more than last year. Thank you for helping me manage my time (family, friends, school, social life, love life? haha!). Thank you for my awesome performance last semester. Even I myself can't believe it. But yeah, as they say, nothing is impossible with You. So yeah, I did it! Thank you! Highest WPA so far. But it's not yet enough. I need to eat more rice to achieve my goal. As of now, goal's too far to reach, but I will try to get back on track. Thanks for keeping us safe and healthy always. Continue to guide us. Continue to shower us Your blessings. I really really really hope I can achieve my goal. Please help me do it. I don't know what's in store for me in 2013. But whatever it is, big or small, biggest or smallest, help me face it bravely. :)))

PS. THANK YOU FOR THE HAPPINESS (in all kinds and forms). Bahala na simple basta masaya. :)))

Special shoutouts to:

• Jintot, the person who revolutionized good morning text messages, sorry if I wasn't able to go with your invite but i really do hope we can see each other next year (after a very loooooong time). I miss you! :)
• Hippooooo!!! Good to see you again! Good that you put your business at City Tri. At least there'll be chances that I'll see you every lunch TTH. Oh yeah friends, buy now at the new buko drink store inside City Tri! (Forgot the name. Haha!)
• Benben, my forever skype buddy. Don't worry, if time permits, let's go happy lemon again! This time, I'll be the one who will treat you. And I hope you'll experience the happy lemon magic too. That when we finish our drink and go out of the cafe, you'll have that ear to ear smile and cloud 9 happiness (just like me when we did it last time. hihi.). GO FIGHT WIN! :)

Then one by one the stars would all go out
Then you and I would simply fly away

*SMILE* :)

MY FIRST DAY AFTER THE END OF THE WORLD

They say the world would end on Dec. 21, 2012. I guess I survived. I wouldn't feel happiness now if I didn't, right? :)

Thank you for KFC. Snackbox and spoonfuls. These are way better than Starbucks really. You know how I love gravy so much. :)

Your "damak" fingers. Haha! You have girly fingers than I do. :)

My first time to try spoonfuls. Mango cheescake is more delicious than tiramisu. And yeah I know, you have to put first the crust then the cream then the mango. SKELAN! >:)

IMAX! First time again! Whooooo thank you! It was worth it because it's The Hobbit. Almost 3 hours! I know they say IMAX and 3D have little difference but I prefer IMAX. Really HD and it doesn't cause headaches for me! YEY! Or maybe because you were just there that's why I didn't feel any sickness at all. >:)

MCDO. ALONE. But even though I'm alone, I have never felt so happy. It was the even the highlight of my day. You needed to go home and I understand it. I don't know, but, I was like feeling you were just there in front of me watching me eat all these stuffs. >:)

AND THIS! You really tricked me with this! I am good with busting surprises but I don't know why I hadn't busted your plan! RAWR! Hahaha! It's not for your sister, it was for me ALL ALONG. I HATE YOU! Hahaha! At least you didn't have to guess what size I am and I don't have to go back and exchange this one with another size (in case). >:)

Four years ago, I planned on doing something special on the 22nd day of December but it didn't push through. I didn't know it will happen four years after without me planning at all. Guess they are right. UNPLANNED MOMENTS ARE THE BEST. :)

THANK YOU. :)

I'M HERE ONCE AGAIN

That feeling of frustration
That feeling of depression
I don't want to give in
But I'm here once again

PS
I hope and pray I can finish my logic project tomorrow or on Friday.

HEART HEART HEART

I just want to share these two songs that make my eyes heart heart these days. Actually, there was only one at first. The second song just sprouted this day. Haha. Yes. Whenever I hear these two songs, I don't know, my eyes just turn to hearts and my heart just jumps for joy. Hopeless romantic indeed. Wish I am with someone singing these songs. But I guess, I'll have to undergo self service as of the moment. Hahaha!

This first song is by Taylor Swift featuring Ed Sheeran. YEEEEEES! Ed Sheeran my baby! Haha! Naaah. Yeah really. This song just caught my attention when I was reviewing Taylor's new album, Red. It is my favorite song in the album already (next would be Begin Again). I don't know, I just fell in love with this song so much that I learned it on guitar and now I'm memorizing its lyrics. Yes, so obsessed. Hihi.

AND THIS! ONE DIRECTION! I am a directioner at 20! Haha. Whatever they say, this song just really got the X factor. The melody, the lyrics, the totality, PERFECT indeed. Would love to have someone sing this for me. There I go again, hopeless romantic. Haha! Enjoying it anyway. I am just imagining that the boys are singing this for me. :)

KAPITAN AMERIKA

KAPITAN AMERIKA

Kapitan Amerika

Nasaan ka na?

Mapaglalaanan mo ba ako?

Ng kahit konting panahon mo?

Naiintindihan ko

Ang mga tungkulin mo

Ikaw ang tagapagligtas

Ng mundong kumukupas

Pero paano naman tayo?

Naiisip mo ba ako?

Paano ang ating bukas?

Pangakong pag-ibig na wagas?

Araw ng ating pagkikita

Ako'y tinawagan mo pa

Pero sadyang napakasaklap

Bumagsak ka mula sa alapaap

Ikaw ay nakatulog

Habang ako'y sabog na sabog

Naghihintay sa muling pagmulat

Ng mga mata mong sikat

Di ko kayang maghintay

Wala akong habambuhay

Napakahabang panahon

Ng pitumpung taon

Ngayo'y gising ka na muli

Sana nga'y di pa ako huli

Mapapatawad mo ba ako?

Sa biglang paglisan ko?

Kapitan Amerika

Nasaan ka na nga ba?

May pag-asa pa kaya?

Ang pag-ibig nating dal'wa?

Kapitan Amerika

9x12 Sketchpad

Mongol No. 2 Pencil

All rights reserved

I WANT TO

I want to text you.
I want to see your name on my inbox.
I hope you'd text me.
I want to talk to you.
I want to just even come close, maybe closer to you.
I want to say Hi!
I want to ask "How's your day?"
I want to eat lunch or perhaps snacks with you.
I want to tease you.
I want you to tease me too.
I want to write you letters.
I want to make poems 'bout you.
I want to hug you.
I want to.
I want to.
I want to.
I want to say, I LOVE YOU.
(I hope you'd say you love me too)

SONG STORY 1

Because I am so emotional these days (Which I don't know why. Well I know, I think I'm just denying it.), this idea popped out of my mind. SONG STORY. It's basically a story, may or may not be happening in real life. The twist is that it is narrated in a song, an existing one. Characters say what they want to say through the lines in the song. So tadaaaaa! My first ever song story. Enjoy! :)

STAY
Lisa Loeb

(Girl1, Boy2)

Girl1: You say I only hear what I want to

Girl1: You say I talk so all the time so.

Girl1: And I thought what I felt was simple,

Girl1: And I thought that I don't belong,

Girl1: And now that I am leaving,

Girl1: Now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.

Girl1: Yeah, I missed you.

Girl1: And you say I only hear what I want to:

Girl1: I don't listen hard,

Girl1: I don't pay attention to the distance that you're running

Or to anyone, anywhere,

Boy2: I don't understand if you really care,

Boy2: I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no (bad)

Boy2: And so I, I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up

Boy2: 

And this woman was singin' my song:

Boy2: 

The lover's in love and the other's run away,

Boy2: 

The lover is cryin' 'cause the other won't stay.

Narrator: Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was

Narrator: 

Dying since the day they were born.

Girl1: Well, this is not that:

Girl1: I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.

Girl1: And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.

Girl1: You try to tell me that I'm clever,

Girl1: But that won't take my anyhow, or anywhere with you.

Girl1: You said that I was naive,

Girl1: And I thought that I was strong. 

Girl1: I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."

Girl1: Oh but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you. 

Boy2: You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go." 

Girl1: You try to give away a keeper
Boy2: Or keep me 'cause you know you're just so scared to lose.

Boy2: And you say, "Stay."

Girl1: You say I only hear what I want to.

DR. LEXIE GREY

Because I can't get over, really can't get over with Lexie's death, I dedicate this post to her.

Rest in peace my favorite Grey's character. :'(

Mark: I love you.
Lexie: You don't have to say it just because I said it.
Mark: I love you. I love you. I've always been in love with you. I will always be in love with you, which is why you have to stay alive. We can get married. And you'll gonna be an amazing surgeon. We're gonna have 2 or 3 kids.
Lexie: Sophia can have siblings.
Mark: Yeah, a sister and 2 brothers.
Lexie: It's nice.
Mark: We're gonna be happy Lex. You and me, we're gonna have the best life, you and me. We're gonna be so happy so you can't die okay? You can't die cause we're supposed to end up together. We're meant to be.
Lexie: Meant to be.

*cries*

WILL YOU (WE) EVER LEARN?

So what's the point in all of this

When you will never change

The days have pass, The weather's changed

Should I be sorry Could I be sorry

I did it all, all for you

Hoping you would see

Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched

Are we ready? Are we ready?

But you, you think about yourself

Only but yourself

But what about... 

Un-lonely nights

Romantic moments

The love, the love

What about them?

Throw it all away

You know me well, You know it's wrong

Then what is it you feel?

You hide behind those perfect smiles

It won't fool me, cause you already did

I did it all, all for you

Hoping you would see

Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched

Are we ready? Are we ready?

But you, you think about yourself

Only but yourself

But what about... 

Un-lonely nights

Romantic moments

The love, the love

What about them?

Throw it all away

The perfect dates

The sweetest kisses

The love, the love

What about them?

Throw it all away

So what's the point in all of this

When you will never change

The days have pass, The weather's changed

Should I be sorry Could I be sorry

Emo song it may seem, but i got hit. Again.

NOT AGAIN?! :(

if you wanna make up for your mistakes, THEN DO IT AND BE SINCERE. not just stay there, stand or sit on the corner.


eh parang wala naman eh. parang wala pa rin. ano wala lang? wala walaan na lang?


ewan ko sa'yo. ewan.


kainis ka.


undangi oy.

IT WILL ALL GET BETTER ALL WE NEED IS TIME

i have hurt someone special in my life.
he doesn't deserve this i know.
but as much as i've tried to steer the wheel away from him,
still i hit him.

i just want him to know how much i miss him.
that everday i am tempted to contact him.
how i wish we could keep in touch again.
but yeah, time's not the same anymore.

sorry again.
i know i've said this many times already.
i know it's kinda cliche,
but i hope you accept it real soon.

how i wish we could talk again.
do things the way we used to.
but yeah, you need time - we need time.
i just hope you will not see me in a different way.

for you.

PINIPILIT KONG KAYANIN. I AM. TRYING TO.

magtatagalog ako ngayon. o baka taglish na lang. bahala na.

i want to cry. i feel like crying. i am on this time of my life where i feel the uncertainties crushing me --- they are drowning me.

to my mom and dad.

oo pinili kong mag ece. pero kasi kung pinili ko ang ibang kurso labas sa pagiging inhinyero o arkitekto, papayagan ba nila ako? naaalala ko pa noon, nabanggit kong gusto kong mag business administration. plano ko kasi mag MBA pagkatapos. pero ayaw nila. wala raw kasi kaming business. alam niyo bang pagiging CEO ng isang kompanya talaga ang ambisyon ko dati? pero binalewala ko na lang. tapos nalaman ko noong 4th year high school ako na may kursong multimedia arts. GUSTO KO YUN. gustong gusto ko yun. drawing, photography, art, anything bout expressing yourself. pero nalaman ko ding sa college of st. benilde lang pala siya offered. la salle. manila. eh di ko maiwasan eh. i mean, alam kong wala naman kaming ganoon kalaking halagang pera para mapag-aral nila ako sa CSB. naaalala ko talaga yung mga araw na nagcocompute si mommy ng gastusin para sa pag-aaral ko sa kolehiyo. natanggap din kasi ako sa up. oo iskolar ka ng bayan. pero papatayin ka naman sa gastos ng renta sa dormitoryo/bahay, allowance, projects, at kung ano ano pa. naalala ko talaga yun. may tatlong choices pinakita sa akin si mommy. up, addu, um. eh sa tatlo, malaki talaga ang matitipid sa um. kaya yun na lang pinili ko. kahit gusto kong mag addu noon, pinili ko ng mag um kasi ayaw ko na ng away o ano pa mang diskusyon. oo nag-aral ako dun. architecture. pero di ko rin nagustuhan. nafrufrustrate ako everytime i draw. it's like pinipilit ko ang hindi naman lumalabas sa aking mga kamay. kaya naisipan kong mag shift. masaya ako dahil sinuportahan niyo ako dun. pero di naman ako masaya dahil ang daming diskusyon na naman sa kung ano ang pipiliin kong kurso. i had 4 options then. pharmacy, psychology, computer engineering and chemical engineering. i remember again, when i told papa that i want to enroll in pharmacy somehow, he told me "wag yan." oh basta ganun. wag daw medical courses. ewan ko. basta yun. so binalewala ko na lang rin ang psychology. pharmacy nga ayaw, psychology pa kaya? ewan. ayun. eh di pumunta na ako sa engineering courses. nakita ko namang masaya si papa, kaya dun na lang din ako. ayaw din ata niya sa chemical engineering eh so sa computer engineering na lang ako pumunta. sinabi niya na kung mag cocomputer engineering ako, mag ece na lang daw ako. pumayag lang din ako. ewan ko rin sa sarili ko. di ako marunong makipaglaban. i don't know how to fight for what i really want. yun bagang kung saan sila masaya, dun na lang din ako kasi ayaw ko na ng mga diskusyon. kasi sa tuwing may mga diskusyong nangyayari, NAIIYAK AKO. di ko talaga yan mapigilan. tapos baka pagalitan lang nila ako pag umiyak ako. ewan. basta napaparanoid ako. natotrauma ako. duwag kasi ako. sobrang duwag.

pero me, pa. di ako nagrereklamo or what. pinapalabas ko lang ang nararamdaman ko. ang sakit sakit na kasi eh. di ko na kaya pang itago. pa, me, sa 4 na taon ko sa kolehiyo, napagtanto kong gusto kong magsulat. magsulat ng mga nobela, kwento, istorya. gusto kong maka-inspire ng mga tao sa pamamagitan ng aking mga salita. pero alam ko kasi, late na masyado. if i shift again today, sigurado akong magtatagpo na yang mga kilay niyo. so i thought, i'll just finish this ece. para naman mapasaya ko kayo. maging proud kayo sa akin. at siguro, pagkatapos kong mag ece, dun na ako magsusulat. mag-aral magsulat og magsusulat na talaga, di ko alam. basta yan muna ang plano ko sa ngayon.

me, pa, sorry. i really didn't mean to disappoint you. sorry kung nababad mood ako dahil sa studies ko. i know di ko dapat dinadala ang galit ko or what sa paaralan dito sa bahay. pero di ko lang talaga mapigilan minsan. sorry me. sorry pa. pipilitin kong maging matapang. para sa inyo lahat ito. i will really push myself to the limits because i want you to see me receiving my diploma this 2014. i really hope so.


to my teacher. to all my teachers. to all the teachers out there reading this.

i think it would be better if you lift your students, not degrade them further. you'll never know the future. you might need their help one day. you know, give and take. you help them today, they help you tomorrow.

when a student asks you, answer him/her properly. the reason why students ask is because they want to learn. it's just like your son/daughter asking you questions about little things they observe everyday.

as a continuation to the paragraph above, i think it would be better to treat your students as your sons/daughters. it helps much more. you became a teacher for a purpose. and one of that purpose is to share what you have, what you know. help the dreams of your students become a reality.

school is the second home of students. teachers are the second parents of the students.

give proper information. misunderstanding causes failure too.

teach them carefully. don't just give them a book to read. not all students understand the book. most understand better if someone will explain it to them.

be transparent enough in your grade calculations. don't ever let your personal stuffs affect your students grade.

most of all, love what you do. love your students. i hope there will come a time that you don't just teach for the money --- but you teach for the "passion". i hope there will come a time that you teach because to want to be one of the reasons why your student succeeded.

i don't know. these are just opinions coming from a student. but i hope these will help you become better, if not the best, teachers.

and yes, i plan to become a teacher when i finish ece.


*tears*

AMAZED BY BLOGGER'S NEW LAYOUT! CLAP CLAP!

i just would like to say clap clap clap to blogger for this very great idea! i love how they thought of merging blogger and google plus. at least now i won't have to think so much of my blogger account because one edit for google plus means one edit for blogger too. YEAH! plus the new layout, oooooh yeah. i love it! it may be simple to some of you but to me, it's uh-mey-zing! my happiness is just shallow. so yeah, i'm happy to see a new look for blogger. :)

so wasup!? well, it's summer now here in the philippines. summer means no school. but technically, i am still not on "summer". why? cause we still have a pending project. it's done already but it's just that our teacher did not (or does not like) check it yet. so yeah, it's still here in our house. waiting. i hope, i really hope it will be checked already this tuesday. well anyways, (i don't want to think so much about it. it stresses me somehow) i am finishing reading the hunger games and planning to buy catching fire and eventually, buy mockingjay. but yeah, i'm still finding other books to read. yung tipong kikiligin ako at matatauhan ako at the same time. okay. if you don't understand that, just use the help of google translate. haha! so yeah, still finding a very good book with that story.

i think imma finish this post now. sorry if it's hanging. it's a good thing though. you'll have something to look forward to. you'll keep craving for more. >:)

HOHOHO. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE FIRST TULIPS OF MY LIFE.

jessi xx : woah! it's my first time to receive tulips! it has always been roses or the likes.

kyle xy: it's my first time to give flowers too. :)

belated happy valentine's day! :)

HOW WOULD YOU KNOW WHEN TO STOP?

because i think, that word (stop) will be the talk of my brain cells these coming days.

FOR DINO ARVIN, MY BROTHER WHOM I LOVE SO MUCH