HEY (SO YEAH)

hey. i saw you today. you're still, uhm, handsome. we were about to cross paths. i planned to say hi. but you detoured. so yeah. i guess that's the punctuation mark. i wish you were there with me though. i wish we had the chance to talk. but yeah, yeah.


what happened this day? it is IT. the thing that i can finally say, no more you, no more thought about you, no more fantasies about you, no more dreams about you, no more expectations about you. NO MORE YOU.


we're done. forever done. what happened between you and me is now just a mere memory.


so yeah. i'm single as of the moment. single in mind and heart. no attachments. no commitments. no any something. looking forward? i do not know. just letting things happen the way they want to happen.


LET IT BE.


goodbye LOVES of my life. goodbye. it was nice creating good memories with you.

HEY.

do you want some daily conversations? advices perhaps? or just, if you feel like talking to someone but you don't have anyone to talk with? just comment here. i'll try to answer your questions and read your stories as much as i can. :)

07/29/2010

Hi Dinelle/Dinz/Wormy,

This is the first time I write you a letter and maybe it would also be the last depending on your decision. I usually write a letter when it comes to a situation like this. Usually when it comes to talking in person, I always say "Okay lang uyy..." then smile but deep inside myself I'm really not ok. Kapoy na mag english. Haha.. Basta hindi ko kaya sabihin in person kung ano talaga nararamdaman ko kaya dinadaan ko na lang sa pagsulat.

Pangit akong handwriting noh? Haha. pasensya na rin kung sa yellow paper ko lang gilagay, ngayon ko lang kasi naisipan na sulatan kita ng letter kasi gusto ko sabihin lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sayo. Okay let's start.

Hmmmm... Kamusta ka naman? Sad ka pa rin ba? Anu ba pwede kong gawin para mapasaya kita? Gagawin ko talaga ang lahat pata mapasaya lamang kita. Ayaw ko kasi makita ka na malungkot eh. Tsk3x. Smile ka naman jan. =p Hahaha..

Anyways, about nung Wednesday, alam mo naman ata kung ano talaga nararamdaman ko eh. Sa totoo lang nasaktan talaga ako eh, ito siguro reason kung bakit mahirapan ako maghinga nung Wed. But I ask myself, bakit ba ako masaktan? May karapatan ba ako sayo? I'm really sorry kung selfish ako. Wala naman akong rights eh, hindi naman kita girlfriend kaya wala akong karapatan.

I know someday you will really choose between the two of us. I'm a man of my words, I won't give up on you, I will still wait for you and definitely I will fight for you. But if you choose "Him", then I will step aside, I will let you go if that will really make you very happy. I'm still waiting for your decision. Kaya siguro ang lalim ng ginaisip mo ngayon maybe because you are choosing between both of us.

I really don't know what to do right now. Tsk3x. Siguro nalabas ko na lahat ng saloobin ko. Hintayin ko na lang kung ano magin decision mo. I will take the risk/s kung ano man maging decision mo. I'm really sorry wormy and thank you for everything.

Kevin Jake