Wednesday, March 30, 2011

A PAIR OF DRUMSTICKS

so much for all the teary eyed comments last night (yes because of my last post, my super friends in high school especially debdeb were oh so reaction paper and crying because we remembered and miss everything back then. yeah. i cried too.), let's take a break first! here is another poem which i wrote for a dear friend of mine. her name is jintot. not the real one you know. it's just the name that i call her. she calls me dintot too. so that's basically the etymology of our names to each other. haha. yeah. she is my classmate in architecure. yes i was an arki then before i shifted to ece. well oh well, technically, we were not classmates because i am in the morning class and she's in the afternoon. oh yeah. but we we still know each other 'cause you know, there are only few arki students. we got even closer because of the exhibit we had. our batch made a 1 week exhibit in our school displaying all our masterpieces. so that was it. like we were almost always together because we were the ushers in the exhibit room. if we have nothing to do, we just jam and sing and play the guitar all day. we got even MORE closer when i told her i was going to shift and that i'll transfer school. she was kinda sad. i was sad too. i gave her a remembrance and in return i asked a remembrance from her. when she said that she'll give me drumsticks because she noticed that i was into drums, i was like O___O!!! i was jumping all over the place and i hugged her after! tight hug! can't believe it. it were original drumsticks. straight from japan! authentic! so there. that explains why my title is a pair of drumsticks. we are friends til now. still close though we are apart and we got to spend few times only. but it's okay. it's part of life and growing up. after all, when we graduate, when she'll become an architect and i become an electronics engineer, we'll have all the time (and the money!) in the world! hahahaha!


A Pair of Drumsticks

Life is full of wonderful surprises
Different fates are drawn in our faces
You’ll never know what your destiny would be
If you won’t accept the unchanged reality

So DESTINY got a herculean task
Two people should learn to remove their masks
Slowly touching each other’s heart
Painting everything into a single art

Then came that night I didn’t expect
A cute little voice whispered on my neck
A humming tune which made me grin
For a splendid friendship is about to begin

We started to know each other well
We began to reveal some secrets to tell
Smiles and laughter we shared as one
I never thought being with you would be this much fun

“Wakwak Moments” as what we call
It’s like our houses are divided by just one wall
Staying so late just to seize the hour
How we both wish that time would run slower

I thank you so much for coming along
And sorry for the things I’ve done wrong
We may not have the stint to bond with each other more
But these memories we have will never fade for sure

I know soon we’ll have to separate ways
Just keep in mind that I am here always
A pair of drumsticks is all I need
To remember the name—jinTOTnid =D

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

DON'T SAY GOODBYE. JUST, SEE YOU LATER.

today is march 29. and march 29 means, happy 18 months to dash and kaloy. happy candle cakes day to ate dianne, jintot's cousin. and and and! HAPPY GRADUATION TO MELMEL! happy grads to batch 2011! congrats! i know you are all happy. but you what should you feel? SAD. hahaha! it's not that i am encouraging you to feel it. but really, when you get to college, you will miss to the highest level of the mountains above to the positive infinity the days of high school. your school, your uniform, your teachers, your classmates, the lessons, the fun, the brain killer exams, the nerve cracking defenses, the super boring lessons, the break-all-the-rules day, the laughter, the cries, the sleepless nights, the presentations, the dramas, the projects, the creativity, the merienda session in front of the school, the chika moments under the talisay tree, the flag ceremony, the recess at the big and mini canteen, the programs in the gym --- EVERYTHING! when you go to college, there will no longer be things like these. or if there is, it will be different already. yeah. i know we all have to move on with our lives because life is a constant change. but somehow, there will still be times in your life that you will look back to the memories of your high school life and just can't help but smile or cry. yeah. cry. so as for me, i am missing my high school life now. as a tribute or a remembrance or a token or whatever you call it. hahaha! or it's just that, i want to remember my high school life now. as a summary of it, i will post here my salutatory address. yes. you read it right. my salutatory address. i won't explain further what's that. haha! but if you have questions, just ask me. i'll be willing to answer it. so here it is. have fun reading! i hope you will really have fun and not get bored. hahaha! sorry if it's very long. :)



SALUTATORY ADDRESS

“All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know at what time they come.”

            Our school president, Sr. Marietta Banayo, m.a., m.a. sisters, our high school principal, Mrs. Eufrosina Mines, administrators, teachers, staff, parents, guests, friends, fellow graduates, ladies and gentlemen, good afternoon.

            I can still remember the first time I stepped foot in this campus. I was still young then, unconscious of what was happening around me.  It never came into my mind that I would become “this” someday.

            It is just like yesterday, I was still in kindergarten. I remember playing with my clay molding it into different shapes. But now, I woke up with an unusual thought. This day is our high school graduation already. I have to prepare my things and be ready for this very special occasion. It makes me shiver somehow. But I am sure, I am not alone. All of us feel this too, especially my fellow graduates.

High school life is far different from those days back in elementary. In our secondary years, we experienced most of our “firsts” as a teenager. We were so curious of life. There were obstacles that challenged our ways to succeed. We failed sometimes. But, nothing can ever replace the achievement of gaining lessons while experimenting them. We did not escape from responsibilities too! In fact, there were piles of them. From time to time, we thought deeply on how to handle the duty that was given to us. Sometimes, we fall on our knees and cry trying to surrender. We even encountered conflicts from various people. But you know what, we did not let ourselves be carried away, by the hardships that we had, and in the end, the camaraderie still reigned. Oh my, I will really miss those times.

            These experiences simply mean that Assumption has developed our personality. We may not notice it, but little by little we have made a difference in ourselves and in our community. We learned that the key to organization is managing chaos. Look at us now! No wonder, we have really tested ourselves on how strong we are and how far we could go.

            And why have I said that? It is because that ACD has been my family for eleven years. This institution has changed my whole perception in life. They were the ones who opened my eyes and let me believe that even the youth can take a stand in this society. It’s not only in me that I have seen these changes. Even in every student I met everyday, I can say that they slowly learn the Assumptionist’s way. The school’s VMT is also a big help to us. It does not only speak for the few, but rather, it lets us know that many need our assistance. It does not make us ignorant of the reality. It even pushes us to act with dignity and continue to seek for a social transformation that would benefit us all. Let us also put into consideration the characteristics of an Assumptionist. These gave us the wisdom to understand more the path to righteousness. Yes, we will all leave this school, but those traits will live forever in us. Together with the Christian virtues that we have learned from our Alma Mater, let us not be afraid to face any trials that may come our way and we continue to uphold the vision of an Assumptionist wherever we may be.


Yes. It will be diverse in college—new people, new environment, new memories and most especially, new challenges. But we will not be terrified. Assumption has given us the rigid training we need. I can say that this institution does not only supply our academic needs but, it also gives importance to our process of becoming better persons. Many may not perceive it. But, if you will just try to look at the other side of why we have those difficulties, surely you can say that it was for us to ready ourselves for the future. And that is, to continue our journey towards our quest in obtaining a worthy education and to stand on our own feet someday.

We are now left with choices. It is in our hands the power to decide for ourselves. Our families will still be there though. People around us will still guide us. But remember, you can trust them but don’t expect a guarantee. We are the drivers of our own lives. We pilot our own airplane. It now depends to us if we want to dash higher, fly steady or go down. So better work harder and learn to be independent. Maybe some of us have firm decisions already. Some may also have doubts still in their minds. But whatever situation you are in right now, just keep in mind what really makes you happy. Happiness is more of a choice than an option. But also, never forget your limitations and do things with respect to the characteristics of a true Assumptionist.          

Now, we have really come to the end. Sad to say it, but we cannot do something anymore. Even if we still want to stay, we have to go forward, let go, and move on. The clock will continue to tick even if we stop working. So before my time ends here, allow me first to thank all the people who led me to become “this” today.

            To our Almighty Father, thank you very much to You. You never failed me. Thank You for Your constant guidance and for being with me through ups and downs. Even though I sometimes disobey Your will, You are still there for me, never leaving my side. This honor is for Your glory, oh Lord.

            To my family—Papa, Mommy, Arvin, Nanay and Yaya, thank you so much for all the sacrifices you have done for me. Thanks for the love, care and the support in whatever I do. Thank you for understanding my busy schedule that sometimes I do not have time for you anymore. I hope that these will all remain still when I enter a new chapter in my life. 

To all my teachers since the day I started my life here in ACD—Teacher Daisy, Teacher Ivy, Teacher Pauline, Teacher Jo, Teacher Marites, Sir Nelle, Ma’am Grace, Ma’am Glenda, Ma’am Moralde, Ma’am Celeste, Sir Rocky, Sir Banuelos, Ma’am Thelma, Ma’am Llanto, Ma’am Castillo, Ma’am Padin, Ma’am Bardz, Ma’am Cadiz, Ma’am Robles, Sir Dandie, Sir Wel, Ma’am Ambray, Ma’am Rose, Sir Libot, Sr. Lina, Sir Payad, Sir Colango, Ma’am Sayas, Ma’am Zeny, Ma’am Cora, Sir Rex, Sir Migs, Sir Jubelag, Ma’am Diza, Sir Heki, Sir Albarico, Sir Breydi, Sir Montejo, Ma’am Bulanag, Ma’am Figi, Ma’am Villanueva, Ma’am Ging, Sr. Rose, Ma’am Lao, Sir Dais, Sir Eugene, Ma’am Bautista, Ma’am Impot, Sir Encio, Ma’am Carascal, Ma’am Raagas, Ma’am Roni and to the rest of my mentors—THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BRINGING OUT THE BEST IN ME. Remember the clay that I played when I was still in kinder? We are like it. I am the clay and you are “me”. You all molded me into shapes which led me to be the person I am right now. Thank you for being my second father and mother. I have learned a hundredfold from all of you. To you I owe the knowledge I have today. Thank you so much!!!

To all my friends, accept my heartfelt thanks for accompanying me in all my endeavors. Thank you for giving me a sense of belongingness and for making my high school life so memorable.

To MarJiDiChel, thank you for accepting the change I had and for accepting my life now. Although we had a misunderstanding, I know you did it for my own good. Thank you for the care and for still supporting me until this moment. You really are true friends.

To the joinerz, thanks for understanding that some things are just not meant to be. We had a very bumpy road, I know. But thank you still for giving me a home when I badly needed it. I will never ever replace with something the memories that we shared as one. Those will forever be in my heart.

            To the LDR 789, thank you guys for the group studies. I will surely miss it. Our friendship will still remain even if we will have our own ways soon. Continue to dream bigger and reach your goals. Take good care of yourselves.     
           
            To the T.R.I.P.O.D, thank you. Never in my life had I imagined that we will end up together. But I thank the Lord so much for doing that. Thanks for making me believe in forever again. Don’t ever forget that we are the three legs of the tripod. If one leg is out, WE ALL FALL DOWN. So don’t ever give up. I breathe because both of you exist.

            And to all Gorettianz, OLPHianz, PEDROSITOHZ and MARKerz, thank you for filling up my empty memory box. Now I have a lot of them. In fact, I had to make another one. You simply rocked my world. Thank you.

And to all the people who inspired me, thank you so much. Definitely, you are the reason why I exert more effort in achieving my dreams.

Finally, my time has ended. I will bid farewell with an excerpt from the speech of our valedictorian in grade six.

“My fellow graduates, before you leave our dear Alma Mater tonight, take one long, last look around and commit it to a memory that will last a lifetime.”

            Don’t say goodbye. Just, see you later. =D



Sgd. *insert my real name here* 



PS
this made me cry. i was sobbing while reading this on the stage in front of too many people. :)))
AND! another trivia! i almost slipped ON THE STAGE IN FRONT OF THE TOO MANY PEOPLE that time i finished this speech and was on my way down to take my seat. THAT WAS EPIC! my tears were all converted to laughter! and you could just imagine the reaction of the crowd. hahaha! i wonder if my classmates had a video of it. i wanna see again!!! :)))))))



Saturday, March 26, 2011

JEANS

this is one of my favorite poem ever. i do not know but i just find this one perfect, the rhythm and the rhymes. plus this is my first and so far the only poem that is branched out from the "to my santiago" verses. (in case you don't know bout it, check out my post with the same title.) okay i know the title is nowhere to be found in the poem. and it doesn't seem to have any connection at all with the words. haha! but i made this poem when i and my ex broke up. for questions bout his name, ask me. haha! and yeah, i got the title from one of our pictures. i just find that picture sweet even though it's only half body. so there. that's why. i think that was our last sweet picture together.



Jeans

A silent tear I whisper
A soundless scream I cry
Deep inside I remember
That we are meant to say goodbye

Endless nights I think ‘bout you
Sunny days I dream your face
Didn’t picture we’ll end up blue
And soon stop this senseless craze

I wonder if you felt the same
I don’t know if I was a fool
Shouting over your little name
Knowing nothing ‘bout your rules

I believed what you had said
I understood the things you’ve done
But none I thought would wet my bed
Those lies I found made the warmth gone

Maybe it was a game so vain
Wasted chance as I have seen
Two strangers locked in lovers’ chain
This is what we could have been

-May 6, 2008




here's the picture...


sorry. i kinda edited it. :)

NOT MINE

FINALLY! i've found you! actually, this poem should be the one i posted earlier. but i do not know why i had a hard time finding this! RAWR! hahaha. well anyway, here it is. somebody asked me to post some more, so KUYA, here's your request. :)


NOT MINE

My heart does a special beat for you
I don't know if this is wrong or this is true
I don't know if I really have this kind of feeling
Cause I'm still confused, that's why I'm dreaming

But why does my heart act like this?
Why do I get hurt when I see your granted wish?
Is this really love I'm feeling right now?
Maybe yes..... Maybe no.....

Whatever it is, there's only one I can see
Destiny don't want me to love you truly
EVEN IF WE CHANGE THE HANDS OF TIME
EVERYBODY CAN SAY, YOU'RE NOT MINE

-April 25, 2005


the last two lines of this poem are my all time favorite. i use it anytime anywhere when needed. i do not know to whom is this poem dedicated. no records here in my notebook. hmmm. i am guessing, this is for my first love who migrated in tampa, florida. yeah. i guess so. oh my oh my. memories again. :)

AND YOU KUYA! you got what you asked. haha! don't worry, i'll post more soon. :)

PAG-IBIG KONG DI MASABI

this is a poem i made like six years ago. it's stated here in my notebook that i made this last feb. 05, 2005. woah? second year? 14 years old? whaaaat?! hahaha! yeah i know. so just please bare with this. words are kinda overrated but hey, i'm still 14 then. innocent mind. >:)

ahem ahem. here it goes. dot dot dot. and oh, it's tagalog by the way. if you need translation, just comment slash ask me. dot dot dot again. :)


PAG-IBIG KONG DI MASABI


Ikaw ang parang naging sandigan ko
Noong umalis siya at iniwan ako
Ewan ko ba kung bakit mahal kita
Kahit alam kong may gusto ka ng iba


Ikaw ngayon ay nasa aking puso
Pero hindi ko masabi-sabi ang totoo
Hindi ko masabi na mahal kita
O kaya'y ipadama ang aking nadadama


Hindi ko na alam kung anong dapat gawin
Hindi ko alam kung kailan ko sasabihin
Dahil takot akong masaktan sa huli
At baka ulit, ako'y magsisi


Sa tuwing makikita kitang may kasamang iba
Nasasaktan ako ngunit may kasama ding saya
Pero anong magagawa ko, hindi pa naman tayo
"Itago mo na lang" , ang sabi ng aking puso


Sana sa panahong ito, araw ng mga puso
Malalaman mo ding mahal kitang totoo
Sana makaabot itong aking mensahe
Mahal na mahal kita ngunit di ko lang masabi


now i remember that i made this poem for a filipino project and that it was valentines season so that explains basically why i had the line "sa araw ng mga puso". another thing, i made this poem for a boy that i have a crush since kinder until now. yeah, my highschool classmates know him and maybe some of my college friends know him too.

why i posted this here? uhm i am thinking of starting to post my poems here on my blog. at least they're wisdom will not just be caged on the four corners of my notebook. they will have exposure then. :)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

TO MY SANTIAGO...

this is something that started way back in my third year high school days. i never thought i would bring its legacy until now. crazy times! hahahahaha! figure it out if you're one of them. >:)


TO MY SANTIAGO I
Don't let me fall for you 'cause I know you won't catch me.

TO MY SANTIAGO II
Two strangers locked in lovers' chain, this is what we could have been.

TO MY SANTIAGO III
Forever is just a history
Spoken yesterday, forgotten easily.

TO MY SANTIAGO IV
You said that we will be together.
You said that you would wait.
What happened to that promise of forever?
What happened to the vow we made to fate?


why SANTIAGO? my teacher told us in second year high school that SANTIAGO is the bisayan translation of the name JAMES. just like JOHN and JUAN, and PETER and PEDRO.

why JAMES? well, i realized that i am prone to the name james. that most of my crushes are james. so yeah. you could conclude that all these santiago statements are about and for boys.

BOYS? who? i don't know! hahaha! kidding. okay. boys who brought a very big impact in my life. boys who, i could say, never became "mine". maybe for a time but not too long. :)

will there be SANTIAGO V? VI? VII? i am not just sure when, but i assure you, YES. there will still be upcoming santiago's. i just hope that the next santiago will be a happier version than the first four santiago's.

yeah. :))))

Saturday, March 12, 2011

THESE ARE THE MOMENTS I THANK GOD THAT I'M ALIVE

and i think this post has the longest title. hahaha! i just wanna share here what happened this night. yabee, (sheena. my bestfriend) called me. and it's so cute. why!? she just said, "yabee! kabalo nko mag piano atong kanta sa the classic. paminawa ha?" shocks!!! when she played it, IT MADE ME OH SO CRY! aaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!! yabee you're so sweet! you're so cute! it's still you! nothing has changed! and i love it! i love you for that! whoooooooo!!! thank you yabee for making me happy tonight. thank you for sharing with me your new piano piece. sa sunod, ako na turuan mo ha. shocks, naiingit talaga ako. hahaha.

PS
dash and i will try our very best to go on your pinning day. LEZZ HOPE FOR THE BEST. :)

and oh! belated HAPPY CANDLE CAKES DAY TO DASH! it's her 19th birthday yesterday. :)

I LOVE YOU YABEE! I LOVE YOU DASH! I LOVE YOU TRIPOD!!! :DDD

here's a video of the song yabee played to me a while ago. it's entitled more than love. this is in my playlist. i'll never get tired of listening to this. it makes me fall in love over and over again. :)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

don't say GOODBYE, say GOODNIGHT

how i wish i knew about this song loooooooooooooong time ago. FOR YOU.


i lie awake and feel your nearness i never wanted more than this
i don't wanna run beneath your tears
i don't wanna catch them when they're falling

but now i lie upon my face and though we tried
i guess that's the way it's supposed to be

don't say goodbye say goodnight so it's not over
and if you try and answer why it's just over it's goodbye

i hope to see the dawn of daybreak and the sun rise to cloudless skies

and now i've tried to see the truth but i close my eyes
and you were there for me and i was there for you

don't say goodbye say goodnight so it's not over
and if you try and answer why it's just over it's goodbye

but now i lie upon my face and though we tried
i guess that's the way it's supposed to be

don't say goodbye say goodnight so it's not over
and if you try and answer why it's just over it's goodbye
it's goodbye