Sunday, April 10, 2011

A BLOG POST TO GOD 2

Dear God,
               
                Eto na naman po ako. Nagsusulat ng isang blog post para sa inyo. This time, medyo Filipino po ito. Tagalog and English. Taglish for short. Hahaha! Sige lang, alam ko naman matalino ka. Alam mo lahat ng languages sa mundo. Kahit siguro jejemon, yung bagong sibol na language ngayon, alam mo rin. Syempre, ikaw ata ang “Maker of All Things. “ :)

                Anong meron ngayon? Uhm, gusto ko lang po humingi ng tawad ulit. Di na naman ako nakapagsimba ngayon. Kaya nga naisip ko gawin ulit ito, itong blog post. Napagtanto ko na kung di man ako makakapagsimba, etong blog post na lang ang gagawin ko. Alternative kumbaga. Ito rin naman po ay isang paraan ng pakikipag-usap sa inyo, kaya okay na rin. Unique pa nga diba? :) Alam ko sa kahit anong paraan, kahit sa mga panaginip pa namin, nakikinig ka rin at iniintindi an gaming mga hinaing. :)

                Gusto ko pong magpasalamat. As in super duper uber MARAMING SALAMAT to the nth power! Para saan? Para sa piano slash keyboard. Yezz!!! Unti unti na po akong natututo. May alam na po akong 5 kanta na i-play. Pero hanggang first chorus nga lang o di kaya ay intro. Haha! Pero okay na yun. At least natututo ako slowly but surely. :) Salamat din po nung last April 5, Tuesday. Nung na stranded kami sa kanto dahil sa baha? Hahaha! Oo, yun iyon. Salamat po dahil kahit mataas na yung baha, kahit inumaga na kami sa kakahintay doon para lamang ito humupa, di niyo pa rin kami iniwan. Binantayan niyo kami at binigyan pa ng tulong. You know, yung army truck, 911 at rubber boats. Salamat din po sa Hao family dahil pinasakay nila kami sa kanilang sasakyan kahit ang dami ng dala namin. :) Salamat sa patuloy na agos ng mga biyaya. Salamat sa kaligayahan. Salamat sa pagmamahal. Salamat sa aking pamilya. Salamat sa aking mga kaibigan. Patuloy niyo po kaming gabayan. Keep us all away from harm and any danger.

                At tungkol po dun sa naiisip ko ngayon, alam niyo na po yun. Uhm, di ko po talaga alam kung anong dapat kong isipin at gawin. So I think, sa ngayon, kayo na lang po muna bahala. Di ko muna masyado iisipin. I’ll just enjoy summer and make the most out of it. :))))))))))

                THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU! MAKE ME ENJOY SUMMER MORE! :)))))))))))))))

Love,
AKO. :)


Saturday, April 9, 2011

CHAPTER 15: TICK TOCK TICK TOCK

"We got off track, Jake. Out of balance. You're supposed to be part of my life --- I can feel that and so can you."


these are the words i really want to tell, well, who? uhm. yes. you. kevin jake de guzman magbojos. i never thought i would say your name again here on my blog. i guess, i just did.

guess, i just miss you. i do not even know why. i know i should not be. oh crap.


(Isabella Swan. Breaking Dawn. Chapter 15. Page 298.)





Sunday, April 3, 2011

A BLOG POST TO GOD


Dear God,

                Will this sound weird if I write a blog post to you. Well I think not. Like what they say, we can talk to you in many different ways. And this is just one of my ways to, you know, talk to you. You gave us the gift of technology. Why not use it as a means of reaching out to you right? :)

                Uhm, I would like to say sorry for not going to church this week.  Yeah. I can’t even promise that I’ll go to church next week. But I’ll try. It really feels good when I visit your home. It’s really peaceful, tranquil, and you know, I just feel happy whenever I am with you. Maybe this week, Imma try. :)

                But most of all, I really would like to thank you for these past days, for everything that has happened to me, for every trace of blessing I received. I am truly happy for them all.

·         For my all passed grades, my 79 in integral calculus. Very good grades, THANK YOU!
·         For that lunch bonding at kfc with my ECE friends, although we were just few, THANK YOU!
·         For the TRIPOD bonding last March 24, 2011, THANK YOU! Many secrets shared. :)
·         For that March 29, 2011 dinner with kuya at mang inasal robinsons, THANK YOU.
·         For kuya’s surprise house invasion the day after, THANK YOU.
·         For kuya’s pa-epal company last April 1, THANK YOU.
·         For my date with jintot yesterday, yeah jinTOTnid date, THANK YOU!
·         For seeing jipoi yesterday at Victoria, THANK YOU! I really miss her. -__-
·         For that drama drama night I had with debdeb and dash in facebook about our high school moments, THANK YOU!
·         For the long sleeps I have lately, THANK YOU!
·         For the I-can-do-whatever-I-want days, THANK YOU! :)
·         For my F.R.I.E.N.D.S, THANK YOU! :D
·         For my mom, my dad, and my brother, THANK YOU! :D
·         FOR THE HAPPINESS, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!! :DDD

I still have 2 months to enjoy summer. Help me enjoy it. I want to maximize every second of it, doing stuffs which I can’t basically do when classes will start again. I hope I’ll have a fun, exciting, happy and MEMORABLE summer this year.

THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN! AND, I LOVE YOU! :DDD


Wednesday, March 30, 2011

A PAIR OF DRUMSTICKS

so much for all the teary eyed comments last night (yes because of my last post, my super friends in high school especially debdeb were oh so reaction paper and crying because we remembered and miss everything back then. yeah. i cried too.), let's take a break first! here is another poem which i wrote for a dear friend of mine. her name is jintot. not the real one you know. it's just the name that i call her. she calls me dintot too. so that's basically the etymology of our names to each other. haha. yeah. she is my classmate in architecure. yes i was an arki then before i shifted to ece. well oh well, technically, we were not classmates because i am in the morning class and she's in the afternoon. oh yeah. but we we still know each other 'cause you know, there are only few arki students. we got even closer because of the exhibit we had. our batch made a 1 week exhibit in our school displaying all our masterpieces. so that was it. like we were almost always together because we were the ushers in the exhibit room. if we have nothing to do, we just jam and sing and play the guitar all day. we got even MORE closer when i told her i was going to shift and that i'll transfer school. she was kinda sad. i was sad too. i gave her a remembrance and in return i asked a remembrance from her. when she said that she'll give me drumsticks because she noticed that i was into drums, i was like O___O!!! i was jumping all over the place and i hugged her after! tight hug! can't believe it. it were original drumsticks. straight from japan! authentic! so there. that explains why my title is a pair of drumsticks. we are friends til now. still close though we are apart and we got to spend few times only. but it's okay. it's part of life and growing up. after all, when we graduate, when she'll become an architect and i become an electronics engineer, we'll have all the time (and the money!) in the world! hahahaha!


A Pair of Drumsticks

Life is full of wonderful surprises
Different fates are drawn in our faces
You’ll never know what your destiny would be
If you won’t accept the unchanged reality

So DESTINY got a herculean task
Two people should learn to remove their masks
Slowly touching each other’s heart
Painting everything into a single art

Then came that night I didn’t expect
A cute little voice whispered on my neck
A humming tune which made me grin
For a splendid friendship is about to begin

We started to know each other well
We began to reveal some secrets to tell
Smiles and laughter we shared as one
I never thought being with you would be this much fun

“Wakwak Moments” as what we call
It’s like our houses are divided by just one wall
Staying so late just to seize the hour
How we both wish that time would run slower

I thank you so much for coming along
And sorry for the things I’ve done wrong
We may not have the stint to bond with each other more
But these memories we have will never fade for sure

I know soon we’ll have to separate ways
Just keep in mind that I am here always
A pair of drumsticks is all I need
To remember the name—jinTOTnid =D

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

DON'T SAY GOODBYE. JUST, SEE YOU LATER.

today is march 29. and march 29 means, happy 18 months to dash and kaloy. happy candle cakes day to ate dianne, jintot's cousin. and and and! HAPPY GRADUATION TO MELMEL! happy grads to batch 2011! congrats! i know you are all happy. but you what should you feel? SAD. hahaha! it's not that i am encouraging you to feel it. but really, when you get to college, you will miss to the highest level of the mountains above to the positive infinity the days of high school. your school, your uniform, your teachers, your classmates, the lessons, the fun, the brain killer exams, the nerve cracking defenses, the super boring lessons, the break-all-the-rules day, the laughter, the cries, the sleepless nights, the presentations, the dramas, the projects, the creativity, the merienda session in front of the school, the chika moments under the talisay tree, the flag ceremony, the recess at the big and mini canteen, the programs in the gym --- EVERYTHING! when you go to college, there will no longer be things like these. or if there is, it will be different already. yeah. i know we all have to move on with our lives because life is a constant change. but somehow, there will still be times in your life that you will look back to the memories of your high school life and just can't help but smile or cry. yeah. cry. so as for me, i am missing my high school life now. as a tribute or a remembrance or a token or whatever you call it. hahaha! or it's just that, i want to remember my high school life now. as a summary of it, i will post here my salutatory address. yes. you read it right. my salutatory address. i won't explain further what's that. haha! but if you have questions, just ask me. i'll be willing to answer it. so here it is. have fun reading! i hope you will really have fun and not get bored. hahaha! sorry if it's very long. :)



SALUTATORY ADDRESS

“All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know at what time they come.”

            Our school president, Sr. Marietta Banayo, m.a., m.a. sisters, our high school principal, Mrs. Eufrosina Mines, administrators, teachers, staff, parents, guests, friends, fellow graduates, ladies and gentlemen, good afternoon.

            I can still remember the first time I stepped foot in this campus. I was still young then, unconscious of what was happening around me.  It never came into my mind that I would become “this” someday.

            It is just like yesterday, I was still in kindergarten. I remember playing with my clay molding it into different shapes. But now, I woke up with an unusual thought. This day is our high school graduation already. I have to prepare my things and be ready for this very special occasion. It makes me shiver somehow. But I am sure, I am not alone. All of us feel this too, especially my fellow graduates.

High school life is far different from those days back in elementary. In our secondary years, we experienced most of our “firsts” as a teenager. We were so curious of life. There were obstacles that challenged our ways to succeed. We failed sometimes. But, nothing can ever replace the achievement of gaining lessons while experimenting them. We did not escape from responsibilities too! In fact, there were piles of them. From time to time, we thought deeply on how to handle the duty that was given to us. Sometimes, we fall on our knees and cry trying to surrender. We even encountered conflicts from various people. But you know what, we did not let ourselves be carried away, by the hardships that we had, and in the end, the camaraderie still reigned. Oh my, I will really miss those times.

            These experiences simply mean that Assumption has developed our personality. We may not notice it, but little by little we have made a difference in ourselves and in our community. We learned that the key to organization is managing chaos. Look at us now! No wonder, we have really tested ourselves on how strong we are and how far we could go.

            And why have I said that? It is because that ACD has been my family for eleven years. This institution has changed my whole perception in life. They were the ones who opened my eyes and let me believe that even the youth can take a stand in this society. It’s not only in me that I have seen these changes. Even in every student I met everyday, I can say that they slowly learn the Assumptionist’s way. The school’s VMT is also a big help to us. It does not only speak for the few, but rather, it lets us know that many need our assistance. It does not make us ignorant of the reality. It even pushes us to act with dignity and continue to seek for a social transformation that would benefit us all. Let us also put into consideration the characteristics of an Assumptionist. These gave us the wisdom to understand more the path to righteousness. Yes, we will all leave this school, but those traits will live forever in us. Together with the Christian virtues that we have learned from our Alma Mater, let us not be afraid to face any trials that may come our way and we continue to uphold the vision of an Assumptionist wherever we may be.


Yes. It will be diverse in college—new people, new environment, new memories and most especially, new challenges. But we will not be terrified. Assumption has given us the rigid training we need. I can say that this institution does not only supply our academic needs but, it also gives importance to our process of becoming better persons. Many may not perceive it. But, if you will just try to look at the other side of why we have those difficulties, surely you can say that it was for us to ready ourselves for the future. And that is, to continue our journey towards our quest in obtaining a worthy education and to stand on our own feet someday.

We are now left with choices. It is in our hands the power to decide for ourselves. Our families will still be there though. People around us will still guide us. But remember, you can trust them but don’t expect a guarantee. We are the drivers of our own lives. We pilot our own airplane. It now depends to us if we want to dash higher, fly steady or go down. So better work harder and learn to be independent. Maybe some of us have firm decisions already. Some may also have doubts still in their minds. But whatever situation you are in right now, just keep in mind what really makes you happy. Happiness is more of a choice than an option. But also, never forget your limitations and do things with respect to the characteristics of a true Assumptionist.          

Now, we have really come to the end. Sad to say it, but we cannot do something anymore. Even if we still want to stay, we have to go forward, let go, and move on. The clock will continue to tick even if we stop working. So before my time ends here, allow me first to thank all the people who led me to become “this” today.

            To our Almighty Father, thank you very much to You. You never failed me. Thank You for Your constant guidance and for being with me through ups and downs. Even though I sometimes disobey Your will, You are still there for me, never leaving my side. This honor is for Your glory, oh Lord.

            To my family—Papa, Mommy, Arvin, Nanay and Yaya, thank you so much for all the sacrifices you have done for me. Thanks for the love, care and the support in whatever I do. Thank you for understanding my busy schedule that sometimes I do not have time for you anymore. I hope that these will all remain still when I enter a new chapter in my life. 

To all my teachers since the day I started my life here in ACD—Teacher Daisy, Teacher Ivy, Teacher Pauline, Teacher Jo, Teacher Marites, Sir Nelle, Ma’am Grace, Ma’am Glenda, Ma’am Moralde, Ma’am Celeste, Sir Rocky, Sir Banuelos, Ma’am Thelma, Ma’am Llanto, Ma’am Castillo, Ma’am Padin, Ma’am Bardz, Ma’am Cadiz, Ma’am Robles, Sir Dandie, Sir Wel, Ma’am Ambray, Ma’am Rose, Sir Libot, Sr. Lina, Sir Payad, Sir Colango, Ma’am Sayas, Ma’am Zeny, Ma’am Cora, Sir Rex, Sir Migs, Sir Jubelag, Ma’am Diza, Sir Heki, Sir Albarico, Sir Breydi, Sir Montejo, Ma’am Bulanag, Ma’am Figi, Ma’am Villanueva, Ma’am Ging, Sr. Rose, Ma’am Lao, Sir Dais, Sir Eugene, Ma’am Bautista, Ma’am Impot, Sir Encio, Ma’am Carascal, Ma’am Raagas, Ma’am Roni and to the rest of my mentors—THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BRINGING OUT THE BEST IN ME. Remember the clay that I played when I was still in kinder? We are like it. I am the clay and you are “me”. You all molded me into shapes which led me to be the person I am right now. Thank you for being my second father and mother. I have learned a hundredfold from all of you. To you I owe the knowledge I have today. Thank you so much!!!

To all my friends, accept my heartfelt thanks for accompanying me in all my endeavors. Thank you for giving me a sense of belongingness and for making my high school life so memorable.

To MarJiDiChel, thank you for accepting the change I had and for accepting my life now. Although we had a misunderstanding, I know you did it for my own good. Thank you for the care and for still supporting me until this moment. You really are true friends.

To the joinerz, thanks for understanding that some things are just not meant to be. We had a very bumpy road, I know. But thank you still for giving me a home when I badly needed it. I will never ever replace with something the memories that we shared as one. Those will forever be in my heart.

            To the LDR 789, thank you guys for the group studies. I will surely miss it. Our friendship will still remain even if we will have our own ways soon. Continue to dream bigger and reach your goals. Take good care of yourselves.     
           
            To the T.R.I.P.O.D, thank you. Never in my life had I imagined that we will end up together. But I thank the Lord so much for doing that. Thanks for making me believe in forever again. Don’t ever forget that we are the three legs of the tripod. If one leg is out, WE ALL FALL DOWN. So don’t ever give up. I breathe because both of you exist.

            And to all Gorettianz, OLPHianz, PEDROSITOHZ and MARKerz, thank you for filling up my empty memory box. Now I have a lot of them. In fact, I had to make another one. You simply rocked my world. Thank you.

And to all the people who inspired me, thank you so much. Definitely, you are the reason why I exert more effort in achieving my dreams.

Finally, my time has ended. I will bid farewell with an excerpt from the speech of our valedictorian in grade six.

“My fellow graduates, before you leave our dear Alma Mater tonight, take one long, last look around and commit it to a memory that will last a lifetime.”

            Don’t say goodbye. Just, see you later. =D



Sgd. *insert my real name here* 



PS
this made me cry. i was sobbing while reading this on the stage in front of too many people. :)))
AND! another trivia! i almost slipped ON THE STAGE IN FRONT OF THE TOO MANY PEOPLE that time i finished this speech and was on my way down to take my seat. THAT WAS EPIC! my tears were all converted to laughter! and you could just imagine the reaction of the crowd. hahaha! i wonder if my classmates had a video of it. i wanna see again!!! :)))))))



Saturday, March 26, 2011

JEANS

this is one of my favorite poem ever. i do not know but i just find this one perfect, the rhythm and the rhymes. plus this is my first and so far the only poem that is branched out from the "to my santiago" verses. (in case you don't know bout it, check out my post with the same title.) okay i know the title is nowhere to be found in the poem. and it doesn't seem to have any connection at all with the words. haha! but i made this poem when i and my ex broke up. for questions bout his name, ask me. haha! and yeah, i got the title from one of our pictures. i just find that picture sweet even though it's only half body. so there. that's why. i think that was our last sweet picture together.



Jeans

A silent tear I whisper
A soundless scream I cry
Deep inside I remember
That we are meant to say goodbye

Endless nights I think ‘bout you
Sunny days I dream your face
Didn’t picture we’ll end up blue
And soon stop this senseless craze

I wonder if you felt the same
I don’t know if I was a fool
Shouting over your little name
Knowing nothing ‘bout your rules

I believed what you had said
I understood the things you’ve done
But none I thought would wet my bed
Those lies I found made the warmth gone

Maybe it was a game so vain
Wasted chance as I have seen
Two strangers locked in lovers’ chain
This is what we could have been

-May 6, 2008




here's the picture...


sorry. i kinda edited it. :)

NOT MINE

FINALLY! i've found you! actually, this poem should be the one i posted earlier. but i do not know why i had a hard time finding this! RAWR! hahaha. well anyway, here it is. somebody asked me to post some more, so KUYA, here's your request. :)


NOT MINE

My heart does a special beat for you
I don't know if this is wrong or this is true
I don't know if I really have this kind of feeling
Cause I'm still confused, that's why I'm dreaming

But why does my heart act like this?
Why do I get hurt when I see your granted wish?
Is this really love I'm feeling right now?
Maybe yes..... Maybe no.....

Whatever it is, there's only one I can see
Destiny don't want me to love you truly
EVEN IF WE CHANGE THE HANDS OF TIME
EVERYBODY CAN SAY, YOU'RE NOT MINE

-April 25, 2005


the last two lines of this poem are my all time favorite. i use it anytime anywhere when needed. i do not know to whom is this poem dedicated. no records here in my notebook. hmmm. i am guessing, this is for my first love who migrated in tampa, florida. yeah. i guess so. oh my oh my. memories again. :)

AND YOU KUYA! you got what you asked. haha! don't worry, i'll post more soon. :)

PAG-IBIG KONG DI MASABI

this is a poem i made like six years ago. it's stated here in my notebook that i made this last feb. 05, 2005. woah? second year? 14 years old? whaaaat?! hahaha! yeah i know. so just please bare with this. words are kinda overrated but hey, i'm still 14 then. innocent mind. >:)

ahem ahem. here it goes. dot dot dot. and oh, it's tagalog by the way. if you need translation, just comment slash ask me. dot dot dot again. :)


PAG-IBIG KONG DI MASABI


Ikaw ang parang naging sandigan ko
Noong umalis siya at iniwan ako
Ewan ko ba kung bakit mahal kita
Kahit alam kong may gusto ka ng iba


Ikaw ngayon ay nasa aking puso
Pero hindi ko masabi-sabi ang totoo
Hindi ko masabi na mahal kita
O kaya'y ipadama ang aking nadadama


Hindi ko na alam kung anong dapat gawin
Hindi ko alam kung kailan ko sasabihin
Dahil takot akong masaktan sa huli
At baka ulit, ako'y magsisi


Sa tuwing makikita kitang may kasamang iba
Nasasaktan ako ngunit may kasama ding saya
Pero anong magagawa ko, hindi pa naman tayo
"Itago mo na lang" , ang sabi ng aking puso


Sana sa panahong ito, araw ng mga puso
Malalaman mo ding mahal kitang totoo
Sana makaabot itong aking mensahe
Mahal na mahal kita ngunit di ko lang masabi


now i remember that i made this poem for a filipino project and that it was valentines season so that explains basically why i had the line "sa araw ng mga puso". another thing, i made this poem for a boy that i have a crush since kinder until now. yeah, my highschool classmates know him and maybe some of my college friends know him too.

why i posted this here? uhm i am thinking of starting to post my poems here on my blog. at least they're wisdom will not just be caged on the four corners of my notebook. they will have exposure then. :)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

TO MY SANTIAGO...

this is something that started way back in my third year high school days. i never thought i would bring its legacy until now. crazy times! hahahahaha! figure it out if you're one of them. >:)


TO MY SANTIAGO I
Don't let me fall for you 'cause I know you won't catch me.

TO MY SANTIAGO II
Two strangers locked in lovers' chain, this is what we could have been.

TO MY SANTIAGO III
Forever is just a history
Spoken yesterday, forgotten easily.

TO MY SANTIAGO IV
You said that we will be together.
You said that you would wait.
What happened to that promise of forever?
What happened to the vow we made to fate?


why SANTIAGO? my teacher told us in second year high school that SANTIAGO is the bisayan translation of the name JAMES. just like JOHN and JUAN, and PETER and PEDRO.

why JAMES? well, i realized that i am prone to the name james. that most of my crushes are james. so yeah. you could conclude that all these santiago statements are about and for boys.

BOYS? who? i don't know! hahaha! kidding. okay. boys who brought a very big impact in my life. boys who, i could say, never became "mine". maybe for a time but not too long. :)

will there be SANTIAGO V? VI? VII? i am not just sure when, but i assure you, YES. there will still be upcoming santiago's. i just hope that the next santiago will be a happier version than the first four santiago's.

yeah. :))))

Saturday, March 12, 2011

THESE ARE THE MOMENTS I THANK GOD THAT I'M ALIVE

and i think this post has the longest title. hahaha! i just wanna share here what happened this night. yabee, (sheena. my bestfriend) called me. and it's so cute. why!? she just said, "yabee! kabalo nko mag piano atong kanta sa the classic. paminawa ha?" shocks!!! when she played it, IT MADE ME OH SO CRY! aaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!! yabee you're so sweet! you're so cute! it's still you! nothing has changed! and i love it! i love you for that! whoooooooo!!! thank you yabee for making me happy tonight. thank you for sharing with me your new piano piece. sa sunod, ako na turuan mo ha. shocks, naiingit talaga ako. hahaha.

PS
dash and i will try our very best to go on your pinning day. LEZZ HOPE FOR THE BEST. :)

and oh! belated HAPPY CANDLE CAKES DAY TO DASH! it's her 19th birthday yesterday. :)

I LOVE YOU YABEE! I LOVE YOU DASH! I LOVE YOU TRIPOD!!! :DDD

here's a video of the song yabee played to me a while ago. it's entitled more than love. this is in my playlist. i'll never get tired of listening to this. it makes me fall in love over and over again. :)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

don't say GOODBYE, say GOODNIGHT

how i wish i knew about this song loooooooooooooong time ago. FOR YOU.


i lie awake and feel your nearness i never wanted more than this
i don't wanna run beneath your tears
i don't wanna catch them when they're falling

but now i lie upon my face and though we tried
i guess that's the way it's supposed to be

don't say goodbye say goodnight so it's not over
and if you try and answer why it's just over it's goodbye

i hope to see the dawn of daybreak and the sun rise to cloudless skies

and now i've tried to see the truth but i close my eyes
and you were there for me and i was there for you

don't say goodbye say goodnight so it's not over
and if you try and answer why it's just over it's goodbye

but now i lie upon my face and though we tried
i guess that's the way it's supposed to be

don't say goodbye say goodnight so it's not over
and if you try and answer why it's just over it's goodbye
it's goodbye 

Friday, February 25, 2011

HAPPILY EVER AFTER

finally!!! my song to celebrate this year's first quarter! finding a song to commemorate every first quarter of the year has been my tradition for three years now. i find it challenging but fun. and it's satisfying. :)





Let me riddle you a ditty, it's just an itty bitty, little thing on my mind.
About a boy and a girl, trying to take on the world one kiss at a time.
Now the funny thing about, ain't a story without it, but the story is mine.
And I wish you could say, that it ended just fine.

We all want to know, how it ends.

Oh, happily ever after, wouldn't you know, wouldn't you know.
Oh, skip to the ending, who'd like to know, I'd like to know.
Author of the moment, can you tell me, do I end up, do I end up happy?

Inhale, breathe steady, exhale, like you're ready, if you're ready or not.
Just a boy and a girl trying to take on the world, and we want to get caught.
In the middle of a very happy ending, let's see what we've got, let's give it a shot.
Let's give it a shot.

We all want to know, how it ends.

Oh, happily ever after, wouldn't you know, wouldn't you know.
Oh, skip to the ending, who'd like to know, I'd like to know.
Author of the moment, can you tell me, do I end up, do I end up happy?

We all have a story to tell.
Whether we whisper or yell.
We all have a story, of adolescence and all it's glory.
We all have a story to tell.

Oh, happily ever after, wouldn't you know, wouldn't you know.
Oh, skip to the ending, who'd like to know, I'd like to know.
Author of the moment, can you tell me, do I end up, do I end up happy?

We all have a story to tell.
We all have a story to tell.
We all have a story to tell.
We all have a story to tell.

We all have a story to tell.

Monday, February 21, 2011

SIR JUBELAG


SIR JUBELAG is the man at the leftmost part with a megaphone in his right hand and a cap on his head. he was one of my greatest teachers. one of my favorites i can say. he was just not a teacher to us, but a very loving and caring father too. this was my last mindanao week of peace with him. this was taken at christ the king church at tagum. we came from nabunturan that time. this is one of my most memorable moments with him. months after this, he was diagnosed with lung cancer. after 4 years of battle, he is now finally with GOD.

sir jubelag, i will miss you. sorry if i think i can't go on your wake or burial. but you know very much how much i love you. you've always been one of my inspirations ever since. thank you for the lessons both academically and personally. i'll never forget your teachings. i will try as much as possible to touch others' lives and bring color to their smiles like what you did to us.

THANK YOU SIR! YOU WILL FOREVER BE ONE OF OUR GREATEST TEACHERS! WE WILL MISS YOU! BE HAPPY WHEREVER YOU ARE NOW. <3 :) -_-

SECRETS

i have two secrets in mind now. yes. two secrets. it has been a long time since i had a secret in my life. so i kinda find it cool that i have a secret now. not just one, but two! hahaha. i know i think this won't be a secret for long. maybe it won't be a secret anymore when i'll meet my bestfriends again. you know, i can't keep secrets to them. but we'll see each other i think some time in summer. so it's still a long way to go. for the mean time, i'll enjoy its secret status. when that time comes that i'll have to spill my biggest thought now, in front of the people involved, then let it be. so be it. :)


Sunday, February 20, 2011

COLLEGE DAYS

FEB 14
it was valentines day obviously. and it was a red day in ateneo. sir rikki allowed us to wear plain red shirts instead of the usual uniforms. so we grabbed it! we bought plain shirts and wore red though most of us are loveless. hahaha. ece 2 the best! i heard mass with the ece 3's. then after the mass was the araw ng mga gabay program. it was so so so the best! sir rikki told us that if we could make the gym full with students, then he MIGHT cancell classes. bwahahaha! it was quite impossible at first. but slowly, the gym was filled with students. then sir rikki asked us what do we want. we all shouted, NO CLASS!!! father samson "thumbs up-ed" his two thumbs. the next thing happened, the whole gym BANGED as all the students shouted and celebrated. whooooo!!! it was one of the best programs in school. teachers danced and all. plus no classes, whooooo!!! i, jolu and kate headed to mcdo gmall. we ate lunch there. harlan went also. so it was a four some date now. bwahahaha! we were like spotting all lovers bringing flowers, cakes, chocolates, celebrating valentines. and always, we were like, AAAAAWWWWW. THEY HAVE THEIR DATES. US? WE HAVE NO ONE. hahaha! it was so fun! then we went to the atrium because there was this huge figure there that spelled L-O-V-E. we had pictures with it WITH shaun and his gang. hahaha! we saw shaun there with his friends too so we basically had pictures altogether. we went to bravado after and harlan bought a shirt there. until we found out that it's already 3 pm. katie still has a cheerdance practice so they went to school already. i stayed in gmall because i have to buy chocos and flowers for mom. xtian texted me to stay longer and wait for him. shocks! i waited for like an hour! stood up the whole 60 minutes! but but but! this is one event where you can say that sacrifices really pay off and that there can be miracles when you believe. ahem! i went back to the atrium and decided to wait there for xtian. until den den den!!! I SAW RALPH!!! whooooo!!! my eyes were suddenly clear that time that i saw him from afar!!! whooooo!!! can't explain my reaction. i totally had a memory loss. we talked. i asked him if he has a date, what he's doin there and all. he asked me some questions too. but that was it. AGAIN! that was IT! so dumb. i have always planned to tell him i love you if we ever see each other. but oh i guess i forgot it. memory loss!!! RAWR! it was just a five minute conversation i guess. so sad. xtian then called me where i was. then i told him what happened. i spanked his arms to death because really, i can't believe i and ralph met on VDAY!. HAHAHAHA! he was laughing. yeah i know. we both laughed. i was really high with smiles after my encounter with ralph. i accompanied xtian to buy chocos for khim. but RAWR! he was so slow! khim was already coming to us. so he didnt have the chance anymore to buy chocos. RAWR! he handed the bracelet to khim. they talked. i took a picture of them. they talked again. until khim said she'll go to c&e bookstore to buy a book. RAWR! i kicked xtian and told him to buy chocos now and rush to c&e bookstore to give it to khim. he doubted at first. got nervous i think but hey! it's valentines! he has all the license in the world to give anything to khim! and so he did. thank GOD! haha. we rushed to c&e bookstore. take note. WE! i became an instant accomplice. it was a very hot day running to c&e bookstore. you could just imagine my sweat that time. hahaha! it was successful though. he gave the chocos to khim. khim accepted it. then blah blah blah. i need to go to victoria already because mom's waiting for me there. good thing xtian brought his tammy. i had an instant ride! yeah! xtian had his share of sermons for me also. he told me to text ralph. but the message did not send. i wondered why. until xtain checked it and he found out that i was over the number limit! RAWR! instead of 0932 i had a 03932! stupid me stupid me! RAWR! hahaha! it was already late when i finally sent the message. i was on the way to victoria already. but it was a good thing also somehow. ralph and i got to exchange text messages though it were only few ones. i got to greet him happy valentines, he greeted me also happy valentines too. that was it. i arrived at victoria (thanks xtian for the ride!). gave my vday gifts to mommy. bought shirt and pants for arvin. then had a dinner at probinsya. it was a very adventurous valentins day for me. maybe not the best. but still a memorable one. i saw ralph. it was what i wanted. i got it. too sad it was just only for a very short time. and, i forgot what i should have told him --- i love you.

FEB 16
just another normal day for me. but it turned out it would be one of the days that will my mark my history forever. i watched the utakan contest with naden, jolu, mozo and doms. ea was the bomb! hahaha! we were all surprised with the questions like who baptized jose rizal and who was the actor that portrayed amante del valle in the first version of mara clara. so FTW!!! hahaha! ea's answer for the first question was, FATHER SAMSON!!! hahahahaha! and for the second, VIC SOTTO!!! hahahahaha times two!!! hahahahaha! we won 2nd runner up. not bad at all for a team that is handicapped. we only had 6 players instead of 7. one faculty was absent. clap clap clap for all of them. but i got the saddest news that day. dash was there at the utakan too with kaloy to take some pictures. then she told me that sir jubelag died already, 3am that day. i was like O_O!!! i asked her over and over again if it was really true then she said yes. she saw it at ate sam's fb. then i got the second the motion from a text from shishi. it was really true. one of my greatest teachers died already. i was really teary eyed that moment on. really can't understand my feelings. i wanted to cry and burst into tears but i can't. too many people around. i cant. so fickle minded, i decided to stay late at school to wach the cheerdance rehearsals with naden and jolu. we watched. but all throughout the rehearsals, my mind was still in a state of shock from the sad news. when i arrived home, i immediately opened my laptop and signed in my fb. and the news was all over my wall. all were about sir jubelag. i visited ate sam's fb. message of condolences filled it. i typed my message of condolence too and sent it. i told her how great sir jubelag was, that he was just not a teacher to us, HE WAS ALSO A FATHER. my tears were really rolling down my cheeks as i typed those words. memories with sir jubelag flashed back as i typed tweets bout him on my twitter account. SIR JUBELAG WAS A GREAT MAN, TEACHER, FRIEND AND FATHER. i will really miss him. so much. :'((

FEB 18
awitenista day! tickets amazing race day! database day! deadline for the drawing thingy day! so many happenings that day. 6 hours, we (naden, jolu and anj) figured out how to do our database thingy. that oh so complicated ERD. and that relationship thingy. really had a hard time. but good thing we figured it out after. naden did the figures of the ERD in the ms word. while i, jolu and anj played angry birds. hahaha! sorry naden. we'll do the rest of the stuffs. classes enden, we waited at f313 for kuya budy's text bout the tickets. amazing race it is! but first i went to c404 to pass my sketchpad but i backed out the very last minute. stupid me again. i dont know! i suddenly did not have the guts! AGAIN! RAWR! RAWR! RAWR! i want to slap myself for not pursuing it. RAWR! i went back to the amazing race thing instead. we waited for minutes and minutes and minutes. until xtain suddenly ran. i was a bit late reaction why he ran. until i realized it was an amazing race thing. so i ran too! hahaha! carrying my bag weighted with my lappy, i ran from f313 to j301! so exhausting!!! hahaha! but twas fun. i got the number 6 ticket. so amazing race done. we went to jfc for a dinner. quick dinner indeed because the line for awitenista was already loaded so we had to fall in line already too! but you know, the power of friends pave its way again. we got to singit because of the ece 3's many connections. hahaha! thanks to them! and to everyone! we got inside and seated at the upper part. awitenista started and so we rock and rolled! the house brought down when shades of white performed. SABIT it is! it was mika's band. he composed the song and everybody was just singing with them every lyric of the song. whoooooo!!! so fun!!! they were all performance to the max! they got more the hearts of the crowd when they wore those very girly headbands at the middle of the song. PARTEY! hahaha! i went home early. after the performance of agua's FAST. jolu, naden and kryzl went home with me also. when i got home, texts were all over that SABIT WON! YEY! it was the song of the year and mika was the composer of the year! OH YEAH! congrats meka-il! ang lake lake mo! :)))))))

FEB 19
the day everybody was waiting for, CHEERDANCE DAY! ece's had a seminar at nikkei jin kai except for ece 2. so i asked tiany if i could have a ride with them going to school. he said yes. so again, thanky tiany! hahaha. sorry also for keeping all of you wait at the kanto. i had to check the house if everything was okay before going out. so then broom broom broom. when we arrived in school, i called jolu so we could have dinner before the show starts. we ate at kabab. it was my first time there. yeah really, first time! and yeah, i liked it. very delicious kabab baby! hahaha. then we fell in line already as the line started to thicken. we stood up there for i think an hour. so bagal the progress of the entracne thingy. til finally we were able to go in. but unfortunately, we were all separate ways because of the limited seats. i was with tiany, naden and migen. jolu and agua and all others were on the upper part. so there. i think it was okay already. what matters most is we could watch. yeah. and so the show started! it was a blast. cheers here, screams there, whatever shouts everywhere! haha! CEA was first to present. we were all cheering for them of course. i like the sisss sisss sisss part, the bugsay part, and the dirty bit part. so lolololololove!!! hahaha! clap clap clap after the performance. then the other divisions followed. i thought, we all thought nursing would win. but hep hep hep, this is another day of there can be miracles when you believe! whooooooooo!!! when sir rikki announced, AND THE CHAMPION FOR THE CHEERDANCE COMPETITION, ANG NAGBABALIK! COLLEGE OF ENGINEERING AND ARCHITECTURE!!! bang!!! it brought the house down as all the CEA students jumped and screamed for joy!!! whoooooooooo!!! i jumped too!!! i screamed my lungs out!!! we all celebrated! words of congratulations were everywhere!!! picture takings too! i took some snapshots of the celebration. too sad my camera was already low bat so some pictures were kinda blurry. but nevertheless, PARTEY PARTEY!!! CEA THE BEST!!! WHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! we ate at mcdo after. then i went home first, again, hahaha! because mom already called me. it was one of the best nights of my life. hoping for more nights like this.

CONGRATULATIONS CEA!!! congrats katie and ron! the lone two ece cheerdancers. :)))))))))))))

on the other hand, i have a very deep thought in my mind right now. it started last monday. yeah. monday. and it became even stronger last wednesday. it's just a thought i know. but i think it's kinda dangerous. well oh well, i'll just leave it as it is. i won't culture it, i won't stop it. as it is as i said. whatever happens, happens. and if that time comes, that sort of scary moment i think, that's the time i will tell it to the whole world. as of now, i'll keep it as a secret. yeah. A SECRET. :)))))))))))

it's good to know that i have a secret again in my life after a very long long long time. :))))))))))))))))))))