REPETITION

ang saket. ang saket saket. sakeeeeeeeeet. saaaaaaaaaaakkkkkeeeeeeeeeeet.

it's ouch. it's so ouch. ouuuuucccchhhhh. oooooooooouuuuuuuccccchhhhhhhh.

saaaaaaaaaaa---keeeeeeeeeeeeet

ouuuuuuucchh---ccccchhhhhhyyy

saaaaaaakkkkkkeeeeeeeeeetttttt

ooooooouuuuuuuccccchhhhhhhhh

hoooooooooooooooooooooooo

hoooooooooooooooooooooooo

:'((

I JUST WANT TO BE...

i just want to share this photo. i made this that time when i was in the era of my shifting transition. this is for someone out there who seems to be bothered lately by a situation similar to mine before. just remember that life doesn’t end there. it may be hard today, but rest assured there’s a happier light waiting ahead for you.

THIS IS FOR ALL THE FAILED-AND-WANTS-TO-SHIFT, FAILED-BUT-STILL-WANTS-TO-STAY, NO-FAILURES-BUT-AREN’T-HAPPY, WANTS-TO-SHIFT-BUT-JUST-CAN’T STUDENTS. i know a lot of people who are experiencing this now. i hope they all get okay soon and that they'll find what they really want --- peace of mind, confidence, happiness.

let us all put our happiness on top of our priority list. :))

NINETY

these are my first sem grades. i don't know if you can read it but i hope it's clear enough. haha. and for that blank spots, my teacher gave me a 92. i wasn't able to take a picture of it anymore because i got hyped when i saw my final and official grades. haha. and when we computed for the wpa, the calculator displayed... 90. :D

THANK YOU LORD!!!
THANK YOU ALSO BECAUSE MY CLASSMATES PASSED!!!
:))

ANGELS OR DEVILS

since i can't post on tumblr and i don't know why, i decided to just post it here on blogger. and since i can't post the video. argh!!! i decided to just post the lyrics instead.

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall 
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us 
are we ever 
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down 
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time 
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see 

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us 
are we ever 
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around 
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one 
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold


nangyari na eto noon. wag naman sana ngayon.

THE NAME AUBREY

and here it is for aubrey! since dinelle is not common and i don't think i am that famous already to be in wikipedia. haha. what?! i'm a ruler of elves? how did this thing happen? haha. i really don't know. but i find my name's origin funny. enjoy reading again! :D

Of Teutonic origin, "Aubrey" means "Fair Ruler of the Little People", or "King of the Elves" ^[1]. The name Alberich is a more common Germanic variant, with the syllable 'Alb' translating as "Elf" and 'Ric' representing "power". In the twelfth century, a Christian saint and abbot named St. Aubrey founded the Cistercian Order, seeking to operate under the Rule of St. Benedict, continuing Benedict of Nursia's tradition of solitary scholarship in a community of monasticism. In some nations, he as known as the savior turtle.

The name is traditionally male, but is more commonly used as a feminine name in the United States. It was the 41st most popular namegiven to girls born in the United States in 2009.^[2] It was last ranked among the top 1,000 most common names for boys in the United States in 2002. It was the 479th most common name for all males in the United States in the 1990 census.^[3]

THE NAME KEVIN

hahaha! i know i'm bored so you don't have to tell me. just let me post this. i found this one on wikipedia. didn't know that kevin is a name originally from ireland! woah! so woah! what a very sosyal name. so here it is. the rest of the explanation of the name kevin.

Kevin, Irish Caoimhín (Old Irish Cóemgein, Middle Irish Caoimhghín), is a male first name of Irish origin. It is believed that Saint Kevin was the one who popularized the name, although Kevin is not a biblical name. Caoimhghín is believed to be derived from the Irish cóem "kind, honest, and handsome" and gein "birth".^[1] Kevin is unrelated to the names Kelvin or Calvin. "Kevin" is one of the top 100 male baby names in Canada, Catalonia (within Spain) Chile, France, Hungary, Ireland, the Netherlands, Northern Ireland, Norway, Slovenia, Spain (as a whole),Sweden and the United States.^[2] It can also be spelled Kevyn, Keven, Kevan, or Kévin.

The female version of Caoimhín (Kevin) is Caoimhe (anglicised as Kiva or Keva).

NEW THEME! NEW DIARY!

i just love my new theme. it's so winter. so christmas like. with a pinkish reddish color on the title. perfect! hahaha. everybody knows that i love christmas. i'm looking forward to it every year. alone or with someone, it doesn't matter. as long as it's christmas, i'll surely love it. i just love the ambiance, the feeling. though i would want to be with someone during this season. hahaha! poor me i spent it alone the last 3 or 4 years. but itchuki. i still manage to make the most out of it. woah! so much for that! go new theme! go winter! go snow! go pinkish reddish! go christmas! :D

and by the way, i have a new diary. i just bought it last saturday. i really miss writing so much. well don't worry, i will still post some stuffs here. but on that diary, i will write all the stuffs i can't post here. haha. writing is so much fun. thanks for making me realize it, vampire diaries. :D

YEAH --- my 7th diary's title. yeah. you read it right. SEVENTH. :D

BEST HOURS

okay let's get straight here. the best hours of my day are during 11pm to 1am or sometimes 2am or if lucky enough, 4am. why? because i just feel that i own the world those times. it's like i can do everything i want without anyone disturbing me. it's peaceful. it's harmonic. it's tranquil. i am at peace with myself.

now what's with these best hours? i share it with the special people in my life. or i should say, if i am with you during my best hour, it means you are special to me. i shared these best hours already with all the special people in my life. i mean, all those i considered special, we had our own best hours moment already. except for one. i think.

okay let's get straight again. kevin. kevin jake. there are so many times that i get excited because there is no class the next day and that means i can sleep late and kevin can sleep late too and we can have our best hours moment. but sigh oh sigh, he never responded to this best hours thingy. or if he did, i can't remember when was it anymore. or if we did have, i already remembered the latest time he slept was 12am. i told him about this best hours thing. he said sorry and that he's not used to sleeping very late at night. and i was like, okay. i understand. i won't force him anymore. but at the backest part of my brain?! "oh please jake. i really want to spend some of my best hours with you." i don't know. somebody please help me. i am getting paranoid here. hahaha.

now with the mindset. i just have to accept it. accept the fact that jake doesn't really sleep late at night. that we can't have best hours. or if we can have, it would be once in a blue moon? haha. i really think so. accept it. don't be so mean dinzlee. don't be selfish. jake has his life too. you don't own him. you don't control him. and it's bad. it's bad if you force him to do the things he doesn't want to. that's really being selfish. you are just experiencing some adjustments now. in time, you will get used to it.

i don't know why i am teary-eyed right now. i don't have any reason to cry. i guess.

thanks benben. you never fail to be my best hours buddy whenever i need someone to get crazy with. haha.

i know i'm used to being alone. i can handle loneliness. but not now. just, not now.

"thou shall not compare." always remember that dinzlee.

ENGLISH 21

1.BEST COMICAL ACTOR

2.BEST IMPERSONATOR

3.BEST EVENT MANAGER

4.BEST DIRECTOR

5.MOST ENTERTAINING GROUP

6.BEST DANCE CREW

7.BEST MUSIC INTERPRETATION

8.BEST COMICAL PLAY

9.BEST LIVE MTV

10.BEST IMPERSONATION

11.MOST UNITED CLASS

12.BEST OVERALL SHOW

THANK YOU LORD! :))

ECE! ME! BSA! MA!

PRINTSCREEN

DIFFERENCES BETWEEN FRIENDS AND BEST FRIENDS

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.

BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”

FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.

BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…” (Note, if you don’t understand this, watch The Ring. Then watch The Ring 2. Then watch Ringu.)

FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.

BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”

FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.

BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.

FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.

BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”

FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.

BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.

FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.

BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.

FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.

BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”

FRIENDS: Will help you move.

BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.

FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.

BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”

or

FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again

BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.

BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.

FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.

BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!

FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.

BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.

FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.

BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.

FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.

BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”

FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.

BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.

BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.

BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”

FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.

BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.

FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)

BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.

FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.

BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!

FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.

BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this :)


dash, yabee, this is for you! i miss you pigs! i miss you so muuuuuuch!!! :))

PWEDE MA SAD?

first day of october
this is my status in facebook
my twitter is full of sad words
there is one sad face on my tumblr
and now in blogspot?

I WANT TO CRY.
I WANT TO BURST INTO TEARS AND LET THESE WORRIES GO AWAY.